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REVISITING KIM

I REMEMBER KIM SAYING TO ME. YES I USE MEN FOR THEIR MONEY. YES MEN USE ME FOR MY BODY BUT THAT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY MIND. SO IN BOOK ONE I TELL YOU HOW I HAD JUST ARRIVED IN HER CITY BY BUS AND SHE WAS WORKING THE SIDEWALK. SHE WAS A VERY GOOD WORKER. SHE HAD NO COMPLAINTS BY ANYONE. I ARRIVED LATE TOO LATE TO RENT A ROOM OR GO TO THE SHELTER. SHE WALKED OVER TO ME AND TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT YOU CAN READ IT IN BOOK ONE. SHE LET ME STAY IN HER HOTEL ROOM FOR THE NIGHT AS LONG AS I WATCHED HER BABY THAT SHE HAD LEFT ALONE TO MAKE MONEY. SO YEARS LATER I RETURNED AND FOUND KIM THE MANAGER OF THAT SAME BUS STATION ( SHE WORKED AND SOLD HER BODY ALL THE WAY TO THE TOP ). THAT WAS YEARS AGO, A FEW DAYS AGO KIM FOUND ME ON SOCIAL MEDIA AND TOLD ME TO TELL YOU GUYS THIS, KIM SAID ” LISTEN PEOPLE I KNOW I DID SOME SAD AND UNLADY LIKE THINGS BUT YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND I WAS DOING EVERYTHING I DID FOR ME AND MY CHILD. PEOPLE ALWAYS ASSUME YOU OF BEING A BAD PERSON BECAUSE YOU DO THINGS OTHERS FROWN DOWN ON. THEN SHE SAID THEM SAME PEOPLE DIDN’T LEND A HAND. THEN SAME PEOPLE DIDN’T FEED MY CHILD. THEM SAME PEOPLE WALKED BY WHEN I WAS IN THE STREETS WORKING AND INSTEAD OF HELPING ALL THEY DID IS RUN THEY MOUTHS OR DO BUSINESS WITH ME. FUNNY THEY DON’T TALK WHEN THEY GETTING THEY FREAK ON. NOW I’M THE DISTRICT MANAGER WITH A HUSBAND AND FOUR KIDS. I’M THE BOSS OF MY OWN LIFE. YES THEY STILL TALK ABOUT ME AND WHAT I USE TO DO BUT I JUMPED THROUGH DARKNESS AND SAID TO MYSELF, EVERYDAY IS MY WAY LIFE GAVE ME SOMETHING. WHAT ABOUT YOU…..I TOLD KIM I WAS PROUD OF HER. SHE THEN TOLD ME WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT THE THINGS WE DID WHILE WE WERE TOGETHER. I TOLD HER NO WE DON’T. I TOLD HER I REMEMBER THEM NIGHTS VERY, VERY WELL. THEN I TOLD HER SOME FIRES YOU LET DIE. YES A FIRE THAT BURNED LIKE OURS WAS GREAT THEN BUT WE MAY JUST GET BURNED NOW. IT’S ALL ABOUT THE HEART VS THE MIND AND WE BOTH KNOW OR MINDS WOULD WANT OUR HEARTS TO RELIVE THOSE NIGHTS BUT WE KNOW IT WOULDN’T END RIGHT. I THEN SAID YES IT WAS GOOD THEN AND BLEW OUR MINDS BUT THAT DOESN’T MEAN WE SHOULD PRESS REWIND. WE ARE JUMPING THROUGH DARKNESS FOR A BETTER FUTURE NOT TO RELIVE THE PAST. SHE SAID WHATEVER I’M BE IN TOWN THIS WEEKEND WRITE MY ROOM NUMBER DOWN……..SOME THINGS NEVER CHANGE BUT AT LEAST SHE HAD A PLAN. SOME PEOPLE DO THE SAME THING AND TRY TO SLEEP THEIR WAY TO THE TOP. ONLY THING IS THEY NEED TO JUMP THROUGH DARKNESS AND OPEN THEIR EYES TO THE FACT THAT FIRST YOU NEED A JOB. MANY SLEEP THEY WAY TO THE TOP OF AN IMAGINARY JOB. LEAVING THEMSELVES WITH BROKEN HOPES AND DREAMS. SO WHATEVER YOU DO IN LIFE MAKE IT COUNT…..JTD

By Jumping Thru Darkness Books for Sobriety.

I am a recovering alcoholic that used my own methods to become sober. My books are stories and poems as well as spoken words that sums up my journey. Along with my own sobriety program for all. JUMPING THRU DARKNESS may and can help when nothing else seems to work.

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