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What’s Your Reason For Becoming Sober And Clean…

Every stitch has a hitch. Every magician has a trick. Every paw has a claw. And every eye saw what it saw. But what of your meanings for the reasoning. What reason is it for you to get Sober and Clean. If you say you met somebody good then look left. If you say cause you tired of everyone being on your case look right. If you say cause the people in the church and the shelter require it look down. Now Jump Thru Darkness and understand your reasoning is all about others and not about yourself. You must do it for you and only you my friend. Then you can look straight as your new life of sobriety begins…JTD

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Self Made Wounds

We will fight against anything or anyone that hurts us. We march and pray against any and everything that threatens to harm our way. Trouble has trouble if it doesn’t see things in a certain way. Yet with all these things we try to make juice from rotten fruit. We then still will look into the mirror of hurt and can’t help ourselves. So Jump Thru Darkness and when you look into the mirror remember it’s about saving you. Saving you from your addictions and the self made wounds…..JTD

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Feel Your Way Down The Road Of Addictions

Sobriety isn’t easy to find, obtain, or even maintain. Sobriety takes work each and everyday. Much like a relationship that always need watering. Without the right amount of water you could end up with weeds instead of roses. No one should ever take sobriety for a fun ride in the park between brief moments of soberness. Each time you feel less higher or drunk than before and always needing more. So Jump Thru Darkness and stop trying to speed up sobriety road. Cause you may find your hopefulness of becoming sober and clean just a last ditch dream. So don’t just read this hear this and listen. Feel your way down the road of addictions….

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Church Shouldn’t Cause You To Relapse….

Sometimes it’s hard to know what the next move is when you decide to change your life. Like if you love church every church is your church but picking just one can be hard when you are a people person. When working your sobriety picking a church can be hard and even sometimes send you into depression. If you leave a church for another are you wrong. I’ve decided to do an online bible program because my addictive mind seems to give me emotions as an recovering alcoholic that I can’t handle. I guess that’s that same issue many of you have with Sundays. But I Jump Thru Darkness and make sure my sobriety is in line with what I need to do in life. Cause not being able to make a decision about what church to go to shouldn’t have you to the point of relapsing. So continue to read your bible. Listen to preaching online and remember that if you relapse church will be the last thing on your mind. So hang on to your sobriety always no matter what and you’ll be fine……JTD

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Sad Most Of The Time…

Yeah truth is we are sad most of the time. That’s why we drink to hide the sadness. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we get high so we can’t think about the sadness. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we live in our addictions outside the mental unity of society. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we say I don’t care about them cause they don’t care about me. Yeah we are sad most of the time. But as we Jump Thru Darkness we learn happiness within our sobriety…..JTD

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Caring For Yourself Should Be Easy Right…

Living life to the fullest is an easy statement to say. You could be rich or poor and never really get to live life to the fullest. Drinking and drugging gives you that quick feeling of life fulfilling emotions. So when you hit rock bottom you should want to get up right. When your house is dark you should want to turn on a light. When life puts you down you should want to stand up for yourself right. When you so bad on drugs you can’t remember what thinking feels like. Or you drink so much you can’t remember what water tastes like. Makes you wonder and it should make you want to Jump Thru Darkness and explain to yourself your life. Because if fulfillment in life is an emotion from drinking or getting high. Then caring for yourself should be easy right……..JTD

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Sitting In A Dark Room Wiping Your Tears…

The drink didn’t drown away your fears. The smoke from your pipe didn’t dry up your tears. Your sadness and loneliness stand somewhere near. You are so far gone you don’t even warn your kids when you see them grab drugs or a beer. For the best caring you can do in your state of mind isn’t to care at all. Hoping life itself forgets that you are still around. You had friends but you felt the drugs and alcohol treat you better than them. Now you want to Jump Thru Darkness and remember life when you felt blessed. Feelings that you can defeat your addictions and all your sobriety fears. As soon as you can handle sitting in a dark room wiping your tears……JTD

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Are You Giving Yourself Your Best Effort….

Let me guess you rather earn your sobriety by yourself. Don’t need anyone to tell you anything. Sounds like the ways of an addict to me. Oh and I know with my one drink one man world type of mind. But it’s kind of like religion we all have sat around and got into great debates about what the bible says. Only thing is most of the people in that debate never really read the bible cover to cover. Most learned what they know from what they heard someone else say. Do you want your sobriety to be that way? How much time and effort would you give for your sobriety. Jump Thru Darkness and make a list. A list of how much money you would spend. A list of how much time you would give. Then make a list of all the things you did to get what you wanted in your addictions. Now look at both lists and ask yourself this question. Are you giving yourself your best effort……..JTD

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Your Puddle Became A Pond

At 13 years old it felt cool to drink wine coolers. Just a puddle to real alcoholics. At 14 that first quart of beer had us feeling like Christmas was near even if it was march. Still a puddle but its getting wide. At 16 and 17 you were teaching others in the school bathroom what to drink to be cool. Funny that puddle looks way to full. After 18 you made your first child but was to drunk to remember how. Then you notice that puddle isn’t a puddle anymore. Nowadays you drink so much that your puddle is a pond. Try Jumping Thru Darkness for your sobriety so you can finally win one….JTD

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SAME FIGHT

No matter what your addictions maybe you fighting the same fight. When I am Jumping Thru Darkness and I’m talking to someone. I often never see color or race. I often never see criminal or ex-con. I often never see educated vs uneducated. What I often see is a man or woman in the fight standing beside me. You are not in the fight against addictions alone. No matter how many times addictions knock us down. We some how will always find a way to get off the ground. Our fight against addiction sometimes seem merciless but we Jump Thru Darkness nevertheless. So don’t keep negative things in your eyes. Because nothing not even color or race, education, or crimes makes you immune to addictions might. So as you work your sobriety remember we all are fighting the same fight….JTD

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Fighting Yourself And Still Lose…

You be determined to stay sober and clean. You made a plan no more clubbing on the weekend. You drive fast past the liquor store looking the other way. When your friends ask you do you want to smoke you say you already high. Working your steps to your sobriety program leads you into a fight with yourself. You can’t remember what happened the night before. All you can think about is how you ended up passed out on the floor. Empty beer bottles surround the door. Your favorite song is playing on repeat pissing off the people next door. Mud on your shoes says you went walking. Wondering if you forgot to Jump Thru Darkness. Then you get a call from a friend and the friend says man how was your binge. Your friend then said you had a fight with yourself over your addictions. It seems your sobriety was the cost. Because you had a fight with yourself and lost……JTD

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Tell Your Addiction Bye

From the moment a bird is born it wants to fly. When it finally is ready it takes to the sky. The bird spends its whole life testing the winds of might. Reaching with wings to every part of why. Until one day the wind doesn’t blew and the bird falls from the sky. As the bird falls it has no regrets it simply whispers to the sky and says bye. Jump Thru Darkness and even as you fall from your addictions, let these words be the ones you remember. Like that bird that lived life high. As you get sober and clean don’t forget to tell your addictions bye……JTD

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What Do You Turn Too….

What do you turn to when you have nothing to eat. What do you turn to when you barely have shoes on your feet. They tell you to go to church but its only open once a week. What happens the other six days when you have nowhere to sleep. Yeah I wanna know who helps you so they can help me too. Oh you have some liquor and weed you would like to share with me. But I was really trying to Jump Thru Darkness and find out what I should do. So while you keep getting drunk and high, I’m be trying to win my sobriety and fight for my life. If I only knew what or who to turn too. Maybe I’ll get high and have a drink with you. Then maybe just maybe I’ll figure out what I should do. Close the door I don’t feel like trying anymore do you…JTD

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Their Addiction Story…

He started drinking in college. A southern boy trying to stay warm. She had self esteem issues so she would drink to feel sociable. They meet at a freshman dance instead of dancing they left and ending up drunk in his dorm room. They depended on each other all the way to graduation day. They enjoyed the day with smoke and drinks. That’s when she told him they had a baby on the way. But even the baby didn’t stop her from having her drink. He had a drink before work. He had a drink during lunch break at work. He had plenty of drinks after work. He was passed out drunk in the car at the hospital when his child was born. They both got drunk when they got the new born home. They both were drunk when the house caught on fire. So drunk they didn’t hear the baby crying. When they were found both had bottles of burned up liquor in their hands. With all things Jump Thru Darkness and watch some habits of daily life. Cause those daily habits could one day end your life………JTD

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Fighting For Your Smile (Addictions )

Remember sitting and eating pickles with a soda. Remember pickle eggs and now and later candy. Remember how having a crush on someone felt. Remember smiling if that person said yeah. It didn’t even matter what they was saying yeah to as long as the yeah was to you. Remember before your addiction when you enjoyed seeing the sun rise. Remember smiling before bedtime saying goodnight before you close your eyes. You covered in addictions now but you want a way out. Jump Thru Darkness stop the role of an addict. If it helps say it was just a part you was playing. Then pick a new role for yourself. Don’t rush into any new role. Let your hope for sobriety put you far upon a new road. Stay on that road and when you feel you have been on that new road with your new role for a mile. Stop and notice you no longer will have to remember happiness of a child because you’ll have a brand new sobriety smile….JTD

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That Talk ….

So do you need that talk to better yourself. Or do you just feel like you need that talk cause your lover left. You say you need that talk because you relapsed when you went for a walk. You say you knew you needed that talk that day you went robing and got caught. At least that’s what you said when you recorded your message on that collect call. You even said you was doing better because of stolen drawls. Now you drunk and high ready to change your life and you’ll have that talk as soon as you finish that last drink and smoke. You asked what time the Jumping Thru Darkness movie will start. So drunk and high if it was a movie it would start with you needing that talk………….Jtd

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Helping A Addict Get Off The Ground….

Follow these words closely. You walking down the street of life. To your left is all the things you got right. You move your head slowly to the other side and we all know why. Never mind all the things you did wrong cause we all know life goes on. As you move forward you notice an addict who is down on their luck. Your heart Jumps Thru Darkness and says help them up. You walk closer and kneel down to help the addict. The addict says , who are you and what do you want. You say , I am here to help you up. The addict then says help me for what, I am just fine right here with my weed and wine. Do you give up or do you give it everything you have to get them up. If you was sober and clean you would notice those are the words you are saying to yourself as you sit there. Well I told you to follow these words closely. Cause you could, can , and might be that addict in need…..JTD

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Knowing What’s Good

Most people look and smell anything and everything before they put it in their mouths. We look at meat in stores like we picking a lover. It has to look right, be smelling the package to make sure it smell right. Eyeing the price to make sure it’s worth all that, just like dating. But when it comes to our addictions do we really know what’s good. If you had a bad batch of beer or liquor how would you know? I bet you never ever checked the expiration date on a beer can or liquor bottle. You put it in your mouth and don’t even know where it came from or what it’s made of, true talk. Never truly knowing what you are putting in your mouth. So Jump Thru Darkness and stop putting yourself down for those over the top actions of a drunk. You and no one else can explain the ways of an alcoholic. Cause no one can truly explain the drinks of an alcoholic. Yeah I’m sober now but I still won’t pick up a drink to read the label. I’m not that strong to be saying I can just hold one Can in my hand. If I asked myself would I drink it. I would have to say I probably would. Know how far you can go and think about the unknown that you put in your mouth. Cause it’s the same unknown for the rich up on the hill and the corners down in the hood. But for what it’s worth Jumping Thru Darkness for Sobriety is Knowing What’s Good…….JTD

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Why Do All Hangovers Leave You Alone…

Well I would ask if you ever been drunk or high. But you should never have to ask a chicken does it know how to lay an egg. Just one thing, have you noticed that most hangovers appear when we are alone. Is it trying to tell us that we have no one to blame but ourselves as we look around our empty room. Even if someone is there we really don’t want to talk or look at them. Secretly feeling like if they loved us they would have stopped us before we had one too many. Who are we kidding we liked that painful, aching, ailment, affliction, vomiting, gagging, nausea, indisposition, leaning on the bed feeling. But why are we often left alone to deal with all that. Let’s Jump Thru Darkness and think about that. Is it showing us a lonely future if we carry on. Or is it saying in the end even the empty bottle finds a garbage can so it can roll on. Maybe it’s saying after the party all that’s left is pain for the dumb. Because in our era being less than one hundred percent will lead you to a bottomless pit of addictions. So if you won anything in life remember to win your sobriety as well. Cause if you don’t the next lonely hangover you wake up with can be in jail or hell…….JTD

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Deliver Peace To Yourself From Your Sobriety….

If you get the urge to order out make sure its comes with some fresh sobriety. If you from the hood or ghetto you probably got drunk and high so you didn’t have to think about how many people be smiling in your face as friends. All while hoping a bullet or a cop brings your story to an unhappy end. If you a business owner, doctor, or lawyer and all others that worked hard to play hard. You probably feel you don’t have an addiction because of your job. Well thinking like that is something but can we really call thinking like that smart. No matter if you running from the law. At least you can try to better yourself from within even if you dirty eternally. Do that by ordering your sobriety. So you not a criminal and in the best seats a person can have as a job. Just stand up and depends on how tall you are just notice when it comes to addictions the fall isn’t that far from where you standing for you to hit the ground. So Jump Thru Darkness and remember to order some sobriety with your head held high and a smile…JTD

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Alcoholism ( Is Your Happiness Real )…….

From having your first drink from a beer you stole out the refrigerator at 13 years old. To running a fortune 500 company and drinking DIVA VODKA that costs 1 Million Dollars a bottle to help you enjoy life. What is truly the happiness of it all. I mean is your happiness making yourself feel intoxicated and doing things you wouldn’t normally do. Your happiness is saying things you would never say sober. I mean maybe your happiness involves a two day hangover that’s so bad it makes you hate water. Jump Thru Darkness and understand that all that alcoholic happiness is you acting and feelings like someone else and not yourself. So if you act different and talk different is that happiness real? Maybe that’s what a hangover is about all that fake alcoholic happiness leaving your body. Leaving you with your own feelings of pain and sickness. Try to laugh and dance Sober. Try a date with your lover Sober. When you feel you have earned a reward let your reward be a clean and sober day. No more living a fake happiness that often leaves your life in a mess. Finally being soberly happy while Jumping Thru Darkness……JTD

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Is Dizziness From Your Addictions Or Your Lifestyle…

You say you have a hangover. You say you have a stomach ache. You say you have a toothache. You say it’s hard to see and think straight. But you sober and clean so when you mix all that up tell me the name of that cake. Seems that’s a dizzy cake with an after buzz flavor. It hits many days after becoming sober and others months and years before they notice; The after effect of the addictions on their mind, body and soul. The dizziness can be short or it can be long but for most things seem clear no headaches at all. But you can’t stop your hand from shaking. It’s even hard to remember Monday on Thursday because you get dizzy on Wednesdays. You follow all the rules of sobriety but still can’t understand the mental mess of dizziness that makes you feel a little off in life. You use to get everything right now dizziness seems to be the lead in your newly found sober ride. Jump Thru Darkness and hold your ground. Stay in place and stick it out for your sobriety, so one day when the dizziness stops your feet will be standing in the right spot…..JTD

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One To Many……

I HAD JUST GOTTEN ENGAGED AND WENT OUT WITH THE BOYS TO PARTY. I STARTED DRINKING AT ONE IN THE AFTERNOON. BY EIGHT THE FELLOWS CALLED AND SAID MEET THEM AT THE CLUB. ALL I KNOW IS I ARRIVED AT A CLUB AT 12 THAT NIGHT THREE CITIES OVER. SEE I HAD TO CATCH THE BUS TO THE CLUB AND MY DRUNK MIND SAID GREYHOUND WAS FASTER. I CAN REMEMBER THIS CHICK WALKING UP AND HANDING ME A DRINK. SHE GAVE ME AS MANY DRINKS AS I COULD HOLD AND TOOK ME HOME. THE NEXT DAY SHE PUT IT ON ME AGAIN AND I DIDN’T WANT TO LEAVE. SO SHE GOT ME A JOB WORKING WITH HER. I FELT I WAS JUMPING THRU DARKNESS AND STARTING OVER. YEAH I FELT THAT WAY UNTIL ONE DAY I LOOKED OUT THE WINDOW AND MY FIANCEE WAS STANDING IN THE FRONT YARD. I WALKED OUT AND SHE SAID EXPLAIN YOURSELF. ALL I COULD SAY IS BABY I HAD ONE TWO MANY……JTD

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Create New Doors……

They say there are programs for kids to get off drugs and go back to school. They say there are programs that help babies with babies learn new moves. If stopping the youth and saving their life is the plan, why kick them out of school in the first place my friends. Most low income kids only think of the one thing they can do without a job or being educated. That’s having a boyfriend or getting a girl pregnant. A bit of what most adults have to make those youth feel they have purpose in these empty lands. To be nothing on educated paper or on a job site but to be called fathers or mothers makes their lives feel right. Disappointment is beaten down by blunts and cheaply made but expensive drinks. Then if you ask them who they are they will never say addict cause that’s not how they think. Lets Jump Thru Darkness and understand everyone plays apart in the world of addicts. Open your eyes and see that choice for some is the only choice they have to feel they have purpose. The world doesn’t train the youth for the future anymore because most of the trainers themselves are waiting on the big score. So for them all drunks, addicts,etc..forget about programs and opening old sores. Lets Jump Thru Darkness and create new doors…..JTD

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Sobriety And Medication Problems

AS YOU JUMP THRU DARKNESS ON ALCOHOLIC ROAD TO STAY SOBER. YOU MAY NOT NOTICE SOME ISSUES WITH MEDICATIONS THAT YOU MAY TAKE. TO MOST PEOPLE MEDICATION IS A BLESSING. TO AN ALCOHOLIC MEDICATION CAN JUST BE ANOTHER FORM OF ALCOHOL THAT ENTERS YOUR SYSTEM. THE MEDICATION OF ANY KIND IS A DRUG. IF YOU ARE A ADDICT IT DOESN’T HELP YOU STAY CLEAN. IF YOU ARE AN ALCOHOLIC DON’T BE FOOLED BECAUSE YOU DON’T FEEL DRUNK. THE MEDICATION IS AFFECTING YOU JUST AS MUCH AS ALCOHOL AFFECTED YOU. IN ORDER TO JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND TRULY STAY SOBER. YOU MIGHT HAVE TO WATCH WHAT YOU TAKE WHEN IT COMES TO MEDICATION. ALSO TELL YOUR DOCTOR YOU ARE WORKING YOUR SOBRIETY PROGRAM(JTD). SO THEY CAN GIVE YOU MEDICATION THAT KEEPS YOUR BODY FREE FROM DRUGS. OFTEN TIMES PEOPLE REPLACE ALCOHOL WITH MEDICATION GETTING THEM HOOKED ON PILLS. SO FIND NATURAL WAYS TO EASE PAIN IF YOU CAN. IF YOU GET A COLD GET YOU SOME APPLE CIDER VINEGER AND SOME LEMON JUICE WITH A LITTLE HONEY MIX IT UP AND DRINK IT FOR COLD MEDICATION. IF YOU MIX IT RIGHT IT SHOULD TASTE LIKE THERAFLU. LETS FACE IT MEDICATION ISN’T CHEAP SO THIS WAY YOU CAN EVEN GET ALL THESE THINGS WITH FOOD STAMPS AND STAY HEALTHY. I USE THIS MYSELF AND IT WORKS. ALSO START TAKING FISH OIL OR FLAX SEED OIL IN THE FALL IT HELPS TO FIGHT AGAINST THE FLU AND INFLAMMATION DOING THE WINTER MONTHS. WHICH ALLOWS YOU TO KEEP YOUR BODY FREE FROM DRUGS AND ALCOHOL ALL WHILE JUMPING THRU DARKNESS ON ALCOHOLIC ROAD…….JTD

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Addicts They Say You’re No Better Than Dirt…..

YOU MAY FEEL HOPELESS BECAUSE OF YOUR CRIMINAL RECORD. IT MAKES YOU FEEL YOU HAVE NO CHANCE IN LIFE BUT THE WAYS OF THE STREETS. EVEN IF YOU SMART AND EDUCATED YOU KNOW ONE ARREST AND YOU FLIPPING PENNIES IN THE WISHING WELL LIKE ALL THE OTHERS. IF YOU WAS A TEACHER YOU CAN’T TEACH ANYMORE. IF YOU WAS A BOSS YOU KNOW YOUR DAYS OF HOLDING THE COMPANY DOWN ARE GONE. YOU LOOK AT YOUR KIDS AND HATE THAT ONE DAY YOU WILL LEAVE EARTH. YOU LOVE BEING THEIR PROTECTOR NOW BUT ONE DAY YOU WILL BE GONE. THE HEARTS OF THE UNJUST WISH TO LIVE FOREVER. RATHER ITS FOR THE LOVE OF THEIR CHILDREN OR THE PAIN OF LEAVING FOREVER. WHEN YOU SEE PEOPLE THAT HAVE HAD PROBLEMS REMEMBER NO ONE OR NOTHING IS REALLY BETTER. DIRT MADE YOUR HOMES. DIRT MADE THE WALLS. DIRT BUILT MOUNTAINS AND EVEN THE ROADS. IF EVERYTHING WE USE IN LIFE HAS SOME DIRT IN IT. WHY ARE WE SO QUICK TO CONDEMN PEOPLE WHO ARE WEAK IN IT. LETS JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND GIVE MORE SUPPORT TO THOSE WHOM MAY NEED OR WANT TO RECOVER FROM THEIR ADDICTIONS. JUST LIKE WE STRENGTHEN DIRT TO MAKE A HOME. LETS STRENGTHEN OUR LOVE FOR THE UNJUST ALL AROUND. HELPING THEM TO FIND BETTER WAYS TO LIVE. CAUSE SOME DIRT HELPS US BUILD……..JTD

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That Old Buddy Of Mine Named Bottle Of Wine….

Dear buddy you were the best bud a drunk could find. You were always there when it was hard times. Like most friends you didn’t abandon me when I was broke. In the middle of the night you was still with me no matter where I wanted to go. When I had to vomit from drinking to much, You was right there with some more. When I did change clothes, well you all know a drunk keeps drinks not a wardrobe. But you had a variety like a rich person’s closet inside a home. When my ex put me out the house. Like a superhero you flew through the window and knocked her new lover out. You even gave me the last swallow before you dashed into the window. But now to get sober and clean means I must Jump Thru Darkness and walk alone further. I truly enjoyed being your friend and hope one day all friends with bottles become sober…..JTD

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Life Can Make You FEEL Like Being Sober Is WRONG……

Just sitting in a chair and I started thinking about all the things that make an addiction what it is in life. From medicine that gets you hooked. To smoking weeds from the ground that everyone wants. When the criminals look less than the leaders when it comes to being crooks. Hoping the bible does get banned for being an open minded book. Adults that say learning about sexual identities is better than learning math under thirteen. So when you see and hear all that it kinda does make you want to drink and smoke. Standing in the middle of a field of confusion feeling like sobriety was the wrong choice chosen. Asking for help just to be laughed at by an drunken angel. With only hope on your side you still must Jump Thru Darkness and stick it out for the long ride. Forget about dreams and pride, don’t rush just stay focused and take your time. And instead of addictions give sobriety one helluva ride…..JTD

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Saving Yourself From Your Addictions….

Truth is you can do any and every program to get sober and clean that you can find. Problem with that is none of them will work if getting sober and clean is not deep inside your mind. The number one program you should learn is about loving and saving yourself. A hard fact is no one really cares about your situation as long as your situation does not cause problems in their situations. As far as many others are concerned you can be as drunk and as high as you want as long as you are leaving them alone. But that is okay because most addicts get drunk and high alone. More for me is the best words of an addict. The drinks and drugs become friends and family. But Jump Thru Darkness and decide to save yourself. Show the demons of addictions that you have some fight left. And most of all fight against your addictions for yourself…..JTD

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Lift Your Head …..

Listen most of us barely can put the light bill in our own names. We will never be able to pull a new car off the car lot in the same year we are living in. We all drive cars five to twenty years older than the latest model. Many would be homeless if they didn’t know how to fake a pay stub to get a place to stay. Or making it to college and clever minds work together with clothes hangers to rig the washer and dryer so everybody could stay clean. Jump Thru Darkness and lift your head up. Everybody has to learn to survive someway in life. Your addiction is no different than anybody else’s problems in life. We all have to build our own boats like Noah. Truth is many don’t know life that doesn’t have a problem in it. If you not worrying about anything you must be dead. I would say sleep but some of y’all know sleep don’t stop the worrying of how to pay the bills. The worrying of how to protect your kids. The worrying of finding job interviews for your lover on the couch. All while hiding your own failing health. If nothing else in your addictions Jump Thru Darkness when you have nothing left and hold your head up. Not for anyone else but for yourself………JTD

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Inside A Cube ( ADDICTIONS)

Okay lets talk about a feeling you might have while battling for your sobriety. The feeling of being a small box inside a Rubik’s Cube that’s inside a larger Rubik’s Cube with no sense or direction of where you belong. Finding your sobriety can feel like that everyday. Or standing in the middle of a pitch black room and reaching for the door, just to notice it seems the dark room has no walls or floors.You reach out with both hands reaching for a doorknob that’s seems to move every time you get closer. Trapped inside an endless darkness of puzzled moves that repeat your addictions over and over. Jump Thru Darkness and stop trying to solve the Rubik’s Cube puzzle of addictions with repeating bad moves. Stand in place and let sobriety move for you. No more reaching into the darkness just to grab hold of more addiction hopelessness. Stand still and find sobriety as you Jump Thru Darkness and let your sobriety solve the puzzle of being a small box inside a Rubik’s Cube……JTD

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NEXT DAY HANGOVER MEMORIES…..

Sitting on the floor in a dark room looking at the sun in the window. Worried if that’s someone’s body laying past the door. Your head starts to hurt and the hangover memories begin. You remember how it did begin. You remember dancing in the club. You don’t remember who you was kissing but when they said come on you held on. You remember running from a dog and kissing more while falling down. You remember your friends saying something but those kisses made the words pointless. You should really start Jumping Thru Darkness as soon as you remember how you ended up on the floor of an abandoned apartment. Now this could be a real scary moment if you are a woman. But the darkness doesn’t care about gender. So even a man would be scared looking towards that window….JTD

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Strength

As it seems your addictions make you feel like you strong and can handle anything. But truth is nothing can be more wrong. While playing in your addictions you tend to worry less. You think less about things that when sober you can’t get out of your head. Giving you that feeling that you are stronger than those mind worries or fears. That seems to always be there in your life when sober. When you Jump Thru Darkness you will finally feel your strength. The strength of being able to be okay with your flaws. The strength to forgive yourself for barely ever being right and always being wrong. The strength to Jump Thru Darkness and get sober and clean and move forward….JTD

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Empty sober ( A Fading Dark Addiction)…..

If you are waiting to feel sober. Buy a never-ending clock because that feeling often never comes. Today you don’t feel sober. Yesterday you didn’t feel sober. But Jump Thru Darkness and hope for that same empty feeling tomorrow. Just like an empty glass that use to have addictions in it. Empty is that feeling that lets you know you are sober and clean. So when you start feeling that way be proud you are finally becoming empty of addictions. Not every cloud stays dark during a storm. Some get brighter with time. So can your battle for sobriety. During your battle for sobriety the wind may blow strong and your faith may become weakened. But Jump Thru Darkness and know that the light of your sobriety is Fading the darkness of your addictions….JTD

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Don’t

One word can hold you together when nothing else seems to work. The word DON’T can be the only thing your ears need to hear. Don’t smoke that. Don’t drink that. If you out of money DON’T steal that six pack. Don’t lie to your lover just to buy another. Some things will make you want to reset time cause addictions are in your mind. Somethings will bring feelings of doing a crime to your mind. But Jump Thru Darkness and hear the word DON’T. Cause no matter how you feel and what you want to do. If you DON’T you WON’T……JTD

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Visions Of Feelings (Addictions)

Addictions are often visions of feelings you wish you really had. While inside your hours of addictions you can smile and laugh. You have the courage to dance and sing. You find it easy to talk to that person you have been dreaming about. Those fears that make you hug your own self seem to disappear. Simply visions of you inside a life of no worries at all. Well besides running out of money or being drunk and high before the party. Then you end up missing it all. Passed out on a floor or couch while everyone else shows your passed out dreams what a happy feeling is all about. Jump Thru Darkness and feel the visions of a happy sober life. Try to smile sober like you do when addictions have you mind. Elbow your fears and talk to him or her anyway. Bring that drug or alcoholic happiness into focus in your sober atmosphere. Then you will see that your addictions were just visions of feelings that wasn’t there…JTD

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The Word Reward Can Make You An Addict……

You will hear many stories about how someone became an alcoholic or a addict. The stories all have the same theme for most.Things like a bad childhood and abuse are at the top of the list for addiction excuses. What is not told is those that live right. Those that finish school and go to college. Those that finish college and get the good job. Those that feel they deserve a reward. So they reward themselves with a night out with some drinks or something to smoke. Depends on how good they make their lives. The rewards come more and more over and over again. Soon they find themselves an addict of rewards. The reward addiction then will have their eyes, breath, head and clothes all looking like they had a bad childhood and was abused. So Jump Thru Darkness and understand no status in society is protected from addictions. So when you treat yourself be smart and think of sobriety when you say the word reward…..

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Don’t Just Get Sober…Live Sober

Listen it’s easy to put a drink down. It’s easy to stop smoking drugs or doing pills etc…But one of the hardest things to do when living in your sobriety is to stop living, thinking, and doing things like a addict. Everything you want in life you still go about things in an addicts way. You want a certain apartment or house so you lie and do games to get the person kicked out or locked up. Then when things don’t fall in your favor you wonder why. Because you tried to achieve something using an addicts mind. For many it even plays out in relationships. Instead of loving from the heart many love from the wallet or purse. It’s all about what they can get and forget about what they should give. Every word said by those mouths are all said to give them a high from the situation. That’s still being a addict without the drugs or drinks. Jump Thru Darkness and start living sober. Stop looking at everyone as a mark that you can out smart. Being a schemer is also traits of an addict. Maybe that’s why things in those people’s lives never work out. Understand when you become sober and clean it’s a clean slate. That means the way you use to get what you wanted as an addict can’t be your go to attitude when you working your sobriety. Because in the end the only one that really falls is you to your own addiction schemes in society….JTD

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Stand Strong Alone (Sobriety)

So you make the plan to become sober and clean. You plan to go to a meeting and talk about all the things you did while an addict. Many get lost at that part because some addicts can’t and won’t tell all their secrets out loud to any crowd. Then they tell you to mend relationships with those who sometimes don’t deserve your friendship drunk, high, or sober and clean. Look at it this way while in your addiction it was often you against the world and you was happy alone in your addictions. So don’t start your sobriety feeling dependent upon others acceptance. It may have you kneeling to the devil that wants nothing but evil for your life. There is no way to tell if the person you are making a mends with truly wishes the best for you. So Jump Thru Darkness and the same way you stood strong and alone in your addictions. Stand strong and alone in your sobriety. Like a child that pulls themselves up to walk, you will smile like that child when you pull yourself up from your addictions. You were unstoppable while an addict, now become undeniable with your sobriety……JTD

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SOBRIETY (WHY DO WE DO IT)…..

To hold on to our sobriety we must always understand why we have to do it. It’s the one thing that we really think about everyday. The one emotion that even overpowers love. No person on earth can say the right words to stop us when we are in our addictions. Our addictions are the strongest emotions known to mankind. When we are drinking and drugging our feelings to fight against anyone or thing that tries to stop us becomes stronger than superman’s cape. So think about how strong the emotions are to get you to fall off the wagon. The struggle to stay sober and clean each and everyday can and often times is the hardest battle of our lives. Yet we all must Jump Thru Darkness and understand why we do it. We do it for all things left. We do it for all things right. We do it for all things up above. We do it for all things down below. We do it for ourselves cause we truly know we have further to go…….JTD

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For those who need to feel (Addictions) An unjust way to heal….

Empty is the heart of most addicts. Troubled is the mind of most addicts. Worn almost out is the body of most addicts. Abandoned is the love and relationships of most addicts. The need to feel happy is the goal of all addicts. Living normal only ends in arguments and sadness. But while in their addictions is the only time you really see them laughing. When sober it seems as if their lives are filled with their own jar of hopelessness. Sober to long and they will surely tell life they quit. A good job or marriage is not mentally blessed cause in an addicts mind drinking and smoking is the only thing next. Trying hard to be able to feel but being sober makes them face a life they don’t wanna live. For years all they ever had of happiness is from addictions they can control themselves. Even if the way to happiness they choice is unjust. They still do it because for them its the only happiness left. Family treats them like smallpox, kids treat them like dead folks, and preachers talk from a distance like addictions are contagious to the Godly throne. But an addicts answer is drinking and drugging to it all. To Jump Thru Darkness we most find away to happiness without drinking and drugging. Maybe we need to start from the being. Like get a coloring book and color a car and house into your addictive life. Color in friends and family into your addictive life. Then color in some happiness and when you finish coloring look at those pictures and how your soul wants the best for you. Then color your life in sobriety and Jump Thru Darkness and let your new colors on life lead your way…..JTD

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Addictions are not just for the lost…..

Seems even being an addict can make people treat you badly. Many associate being a addict with being lost in life. Some would say addicts are people who lost their way. Any job or career you can name has an addict working there. Some go unnoticed until the addiction devours them completely. Pride is sometime the evil that stops them from seeking help. Yes I am talking about all them but you know that also includes us. Us that are smart and educated. Us that are hard working and dedicated. Us that celebrate being better than others with smoking and drinking. Yes us who now needs to Jump Thru Darkness and understand just cause we the front line. Just cause we help teach young minds. Just cause we make the laws. Just cause we preach to them all. Just cause we addicts that didn’t fall. Does not mean addictions are just for the lost…..JTD

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FEELING IS HEALING

Jumping thru darkness is poetry, short stories, and spoken words about addictions to make you feel. An addict often times hide their feelings with their addictions. Many will abuse an addict by telling them all the things they do wrong. Many meet addicts with a stern look when they open the door. I heard many say things like that’s what they get for playing with GOD. Becoming more lethal to the addict than the drugs. Let’s not beat those whom have already decided to be beaten. Let’s help them instead to start their emotions to work and stop sleeping. Getting the feelings back inside their hearts with words that spark. Then showing them that in life they can live a better part. My focus is to whisper not to yell,to teach but not to preach, until their true feelings I reach. Then like the popping of hot grease on their arms i jump start their feelings again inside their hearts. Hoping to lead them away from addictions. While teaching them to JUMP THRU DARKNESS and understand that feeling is healing. All while teaching them that saving them is the mission…..JTD

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Attacked By A Twelve Pack

I like to think I can stand up to anything I must face. I’ve won more fights than I have lost. But that day I was facing the twelve. The twelve that can make you feel helpless with your face in the toilet. The twelve that can leave you with a dui if you driving. The twelve that will have you outside your lover window crying. The twelve that doesn’t care if you find a bathroom when you need to go. The twelve that says you don’t need a bathroom just go in your clothes. I decided to Jump Thru Darkness and fight back against the twelve. But all that lead to is me becoming drunk as hell. When becoming sober and clean don’t forget about the attack of the twelve pack. Because if you don’t take your sobriety serious you might find yourself back in a fight with the pack….JTD

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The Darkness Of An Addicts Soul….

Darkness is a scare most people are afraid of all their lives. Yet two people walk down a dark valley and one is in fear and the other is excited. That’s because one has great eye sight and the other is blind. The blind person is excited about the trip, smelling and listening to all the new things. The person with the good sight is scared to close their eyes on the other hand. With every step one is smiling with excitement while the other is scared to tears while walking side by side. In this example the blind person is you while under your addictions. The scared person is your soul knowing that your addictions are bad for you. Now either you smarten up and make it past that dark valley or you keep walking to what most would call a sad end. So even if you can only open your blind eyes a little, let that be the very moment you start to Jump Thru Darkness and let your sobriety stop being scared and let your sober journey begin…….JTD

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Sobriety Lights…….

Sobriety is like putting up Christmas lights. When you ride around your neighborhood you may only see a few others with lights up. Many look at how good things look but won’t put up lights themselves. Much like sobriety not everyone has the skills, means or effort to put up their own lights without help. Lights of forgiveness for their addictions. Lights of clean living that shines once you become sober. Lights of understanding a daily battle. Seeing others put up a good effort to enjoy life should be motivation for most. Seeing others get clean should make you feel and want to get clean. Start standing out in your sobriety so other addicts can be guided by your sobriety lights. Helping others to Jump Thru Darkness and achieve Sobriety….

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Darkest Part Of The Sobriety Valley…

Tears of unsettled hearts. Dreams of an unseen vengeful GOD. As the devil plays all the parts. All the voices are venom to the crowd. Allowing the darkness to consume every heart. Dancing with fate to find answers. Just to be sent on a mission by the devil. But if you fall for the darkness, you will fall until the end. Like pedals falling off a rose wishing it would rain. Your imagination has become the devils new creation. But don’t let your own evil make you feel that you can’t reach sobriety. Cause sobriety is light in the darkness. Pain and sadness will cover your eyes. The darkness loves to blind. A fight with yourself that takes you from behind. Never making sense of what’s in your mind. Like jumping into a empty car with no gas. But a destination without sobriety has no end. So Jump Thru Darkness and find peace and direction through sobriety my friend….JTD

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Find A Way…

Find a way black friend, black friend. Punching right while kicking left is the way of man. No one feels sorry for the broken or needful. Keeping an eye on racist creatures while ducking bullets from your own people. Trying to find the best color to love while dealing with hate from your own. Water is dry when it’s compared to a black man’s tears. Only a shadow in the dark can mention his fears. Running to a missing father while leaving behind his own children. Becoming a man without supervision. As a child says daddy come back home in their whispers. A drug and a drink to help him think. Never feeling that his addictions are making him sink. Black man,black man you can solve any problem. But when it comes to your addictions you have no answer. Black man, black man don’t just read this. Black man, black man JUMP THRU DARKNESS and understand this. If you not a black man and yet you still reading this. When I say black man I mean all men that’s fighting for something. That’s making a way out of nothing. So in the end we’ll feel like our lives meant something. Not to impress others but to feel like we didn’t live our lives in vain. While fighting our addictions with pride instead of living in shame. Black man, black man find a way…..JTD