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When That You Falls…

When that you falls it seems you let yourself down. Lost your job and your car. Your lover say you drink to much. You tell your lover you don’t drink enough. Mad at everyone in the check cashing line. Whispering to yourself where mine. Then you remember showing u to work drunk. Right from the club talking about at least I ain’t late. Jump Thru Darkness and take A look around the next time your drink. If you in A crowd how many of them have jobs. If you alone and you getting drunk. remember to set the clock if no one calls. Cause no one will be there to help when that you falls….JTD

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Stop Telling Old Stories Of Your Addictions…

You might not notice when you start. But you can often find yourself talking about your old ways to much. You know them I use to drink way more than you ever will talks. Back in my day I could drink all night and still make it to work. Or passing by your old stomping ground and telling your friends, kids, wife, other girlfriend or just yourself about how drunk you use to be. Truth is them old stories are trying to lead you to a drink. So Jump Thru Darkness and speak of the future you and how better you want to be. Cause them old stories can lead you back the other way….JTD

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Don’t Let Pain Take Your Sobriety….

Some pain can’t be helped no matter how many doctors you go too. Things like nerve pain, cancer pain, and diabetic pain can all be overwhelming for anyone. You can find yourself taking to many pain pills and medicine to cure it all. Then when all those things fail you might find yourself thinking that drugs or alcohol can ease the pain. Understand nothing tests your sobriety like pain. The pain that has you turning over and over in bed every night. Trying to make it through the day on one or two hours of pain free sleep can make you wanna drink. But Jump Thru Darkness and hold on to yourself. Now I am not saying it’s easy. But with all you got don’t let pain take your sobriety….JTD

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Just A Day

When the medication for your pain doesn’t work and you say to yourself maybe a drink or something to smoke can ease the pain. Don’t do it just say it’s Just A Day. Your mental health is being pushed past your darkest inner demons and you feel you about to lose your peaceful sound mind. Don’t give in to the uneven balance of your thoughts and feelings. Don’t spend your time trying to figure out a un-solving way to coup. What you must say is it’s Just A Day. Your sobriety will be tested in every way. Just Jump Thru Darkness and remember when tested it’s Just A Day that ends before a New Day. So hold on to your sobriety through it all cause truth is it’s Just A Day…..JTD

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Addictions Teach And Not Over Preach …

It’s easy to say that you are someone else’s hero. Only thing is does that person really need a hero. Is that person in need of saving or is that person in need of some addiction education. Preaching to someone who knows whats wrong can become a lost cause. But teaching someone how to handle whats wrong can make them applause. Addictions are something you have to almost study to learn how to achieve sobriety. Like a walk down an empty alley it can be scary for some and home for others. So trying to been a hero to someone that feels they are in heaven when they are in their addictions can be pointless. So Jump Thru Darkness and try to teach and not over preach….JTD

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You Build A Boat, But Even The Riders Aren’t Grateful To Not Drown…

Everyone called you a drunk and a addict your whole life. You come home from a meeting and you tell them you got nine months clean and anyway is just one of the words they say. You make it to work on time but the boss still takes time out to smell your breathe. Funny how they don’t tell you about the people of no true gratefulness. Cause in our addiction every night we are happy to give the law someone to catch. Some would say if you want to truly see the devils in your life get sober and clean. As you hold your head down “well hell I didn’t even do all that and I was always drunk and high” is what you’ll say to yourself. But you felt getting your sobriety would ease the troubled minds of family and friends. But they never get past the one thing you may or may not have did. Truth is they maybe mad cause your story didn’t end but newly began. So Jump Thru Darkness and understand that even as you build your boat of sobriety. The people along for the ride might not be grateful even if you the one keeping them from drowning……JTD

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Standing On The Line…

Holding on to the last hope of right. Not remembering actions from any night. While every one surrounds saying every action isn’t right. Understanding of all seems dark as night. Listening to people standing in the same line talk about your life. If you Jump Thru Darkness you may notice many fall from the line. Thinking being better than you will give them balance. But hold on to whatever is helping you no matter. When it comes to a better chance let Sobriety in for a change. Now nothing in life will really change so don’t play no games. But you will be able to handle life better and be fine. As you hold on like the rest of us while standing on the line……JTD

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The Bottle Told Me…

When I’m sober I trust every word you say. When I’m drunk the wisdom of my bottle leads the way. Honestly my bottle told me to rip the words from your face. My bottle said you seem to never be able to tell the truth anyway. I asked if you were cheating and you said you was gay. I asked if you liked pink and you said yeah the other way. To drunk to try to solve your word games, so I let my bottle lead the way. For a moment I did try to Jump Thru Darkness and wonder if my drinking had me feeling that way. You would have won until out the corner of my eye I saw the smirk on your face. Now i’m trying to explain to the judge how you got glass from the bottle in your face. And when the judge asked how I started feeling that way. All I could say is well the bottle told me…….JTD

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Accept, Except (Sobriety)…

Can it rain without a cloud? You often fish all day giving fish free worms with no return. Even an hair cut starts to grow the minute you put the clippers down. All theses things you seem to accept. And when it comes to your life things seem golden except for your addictions. Yeah you accept that your pants are the wrong color and that’s fine except they are too small for you. Yes you accept the fact that you are an addict. Except the next words out your mouth is always you can handle it. You find it easy to accept the hand you have been dealt. Except you sitting at a lonely table playing with addictions by yourself. Jump Thru Darkness and don’t accept your addictive faith. Cause all ways addiction will fail you leaving nothing left except sobriety……JTD

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Today Begin With Sobriety…

When you play cards you pick the best partner when you start the game. When you date you try to pick the best out of whats available to love. When in your addictions you pick the best drinks and the best drugs. So when it comes to your sobriety will you pick the best options for you. Or will you pick the worst card player. Maybe you will pick the worst lover standing outside of any club or store and take them home. You might buy all the drinks and drugs with no labels or good smell. Instead of a good apartment you call your friends couch home. When it rains you do get to wash the clothes you have on. How you go play your game? Without sobriety and Jumping Thru Darkness you playing like a hobo on a runaway train. But if you wanna win and listen to me. Today begin with Sobriety……JTD

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Remember To Cheer For Yourself….

What’s good old friend it’s been a minute. Seems addictions changed us. But respect and love is something we will always have left. Addictions can have you feeling like no one cares, but no matter sitting beside you or many cities away. Always hoping that we both Jump Thru Darkness is the thought of everyday. So as you begin or continue your addiction fight. Remember to cheer for yourself cause i’ll also be cheering for our sobriety alright…….JTD

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If Being Sober & Clean Is Hard For You, Your Everyday Life Must Be Hell…….

Being sober seems to take all your fun away. Being clean seems to run your soul away. You only see life with clear eyes about two hours a day. You like to get refilled when your kids go to play. You have even started to enjoy being high and drunk alone when your lover is away. Don’t have to ask how you felt yesterday because drunk and high is how you feel everyday. Are you running from the overwhelming truth of life day to day? Try Jumping Thru Darkness and trying to find away at least once a week to live sober and clean for real. Cause if being sober and clean is hard for you, your everyday life must be hell…..JTD

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Are You Really Sober ?…

The key to all things in sobriety is effort. But many confuse effort with side cuts. Instead of buying liquor they buy the grocery store shelf wine and say there isn’t any alcohol in it. Instead of smoking weed they buy cigars with liquor in it and say its clean smoke. So all this leads me to ask are you really sober. Or is it just another way to hide the addictions going on in your life. Jump Thru Darkness and ask yourself are you really sober. Cause a short cut doesn’t stay hidden for long. Then when you back in your addictions all you will be able to do is hold your sad head down,,,,,,,JTD

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What’s Your Reason For Becoming Sober And Clean…

Every stitch has a hitch. Every magician has a trick. Every paw has a claw. And every eye saw what it saw. But what of your meanings for the reasoning. What reason is it for you to get Sober and Clean. If you say you met somebody good then look left. If you say cause you tired of everyone being on your case look right. If you say cause the people in the church and the shelter require it look down. Now Jump Thru Darkness and understand your reasoning is all about others and not about yourself. You must do it for you and only you my friend. Then you can look straight as your new life of sobriety begins…JTD

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Self Made Wounds

We will fight against anything or anyone that hurts us. We march and pray against any and everything that threatens to harm our way. Trouble has trouble if it doesn’t see things in a certain way. Yet with all these things we try to make juice from rotten fruit. We then still will look into the mirror of hurt and can’t help ourselves. So Jump Thru Darkness and when you look into the mirror remember it’s about saving you. Saving you from your addictions and the self made wounds…..JTD

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Feel Your Way Down The Road Of Addictions

Sobriety isn’t easy to find, obtain, or even maintain. Sobriety takes work each and everyday. Much like a relationship that always need watering. Without the right amount of water you could end up with weeds instead of roses. No one should ever take sobriety for a fun ride in the park between brief moments of soberness. Each time you feel less higher or drunk than before and always needing more. So Jump Thru Darkness and stop trying to speed up sobriety road. Cause you may find your hopefulness of becoming sober and clean just a last ditch dream. So don’t just read this hear this and listen. Feel your way down the road of addictions….

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Church Shouldn’t Cause You To Relapse….

Sometimes it’s hard to know what the next move is when you decide to change your life. Like if you love church every church is your church but picking just one can be hard when you are a people person. When working your sobriety picking a church can be hard and even sometimes send you into depression. If you leave a church for another are you wrong. I’ve decided to do an online bible program because my addictive mind seems to give me emotions as an recovering alcoholic that I can’t handle. I guess that’s that same issue many of you have with Sundays. But I Jump Thru Darkness and make sure my sobriety is in line with what I need to do in life. Cause not being able to make a decision about what church to go to shouldn’t have you to the point of relapsing. So continue to read your bible. Listen to preaching online and remember that if you relapse church will be the last thing on your mind. So hang on to your sobriety always no matter what and you’ll be fine……JTD

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Sad Most Of The Time…

Yeah truth is we are sad most of the time. That’s why we drink to hide the sadness. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we get high so we can’t think about the sadness. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we live in our addictions outside the mental unity of society. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we say I don’t care about them cause they don’t care about me. Yeah we are sad most of the time. But as we Jump Thru Darkness we learn happiness within our sobriety…..JTD

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Caring For Yourself Should Be Easy Right…

Living life to the fullest is an easy statement to say. You could be rich or poor and never really get to live life to the fullest. Drinking and drugging gives you that quick feeling of life fulfilling emotions. So when you hit rock bottom you should want to get up right. When your house is dark you should want to turn on a light. When life puts you down you should want to stand up for yourself right. When you so bad on drugs you can’t remember what thinking feels like. Or you drink so much you can’t remember what water tastes like. Makes you wonder and it should make you want to Jump Thru Darkness and explain to yourself your life. Because if fulfillment in life is an emotion from drinking or getting high. Then caring for yourself should be easy right……..JTD

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Sitting In A Dark Room Wiping Your Tears…

The drink didn’t drown away your fears. The smoke from your pipe didn’t dry up your tears. Your sadness and loneliness stand somewhere near. You are so far gone you don’t even warn your kids when you see them grab drugs or a beer. For the best caring you can do in your state of mind isn’t to care at all. Hoping life itself forgets that you are still around. You had friends but you felt the drugs and alcohol treat you better than them. Now you want to Jump Thru Darkness and remember life when you felt blessed. Feelings that you can defeat your addictions and all your sobriety fears. As soon as you can handle sitting in a dark room wiping your tears……JTD

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Are You Giving Yourself Your Best Effort….

Let me guess you rather earn your sobriety by yourself. Don’t need anyone to tell you anything. Sounds like the ways of an addict to me. Oh and I know with my one drink one man world type of mind. But it’s kind of like religion we all have sat around and got into great debates about what the bible says. Only thing is most of the people in that debate never really read the bible cover to cover. Most learned what they know from what they heard someone else say. Do you want your sobriety to be that way? How much time and effort would you give for your sobriety. Jump Thru Darkness and make a list. A list of how much money you would spend. A list of how much time you would give. Then make a list of all the things you did to get what you wanted in your addictions. Now look at both lists and ask yourself this question. Are you giving yourself your best effort……..JTD

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Your Puddle Became A Pond

At 13 years old it felt cool to drink wine coolers. Just a puddle to real alcoholics. At 14 that first quart of beer had us feeling like Christmas was near even if it was march. Still a puddle but its getting wide. At 16 and 17 you were teaching others in the school bathroom what to drink to be cool. Funny that puddle looks way to full. After 18 you made your first child but was to drunk to remember how. Then you notice that puddle isn’t a puddle anymore. Nowadays you drink so much that your puddle is a pond. Try Jumping Thru Darkness for your sobriety so you can finally win one….JTD

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SAME FIGHT

No matter what your addictions maybe you fighting the same fight. When I am Jumping Thru Darkness and I’m talking to someone. I often never see color or race. I often never see criminal or ex-con. I often never see educated vs uneducated. What I often see is a man or woman in the fight standing beside me. You are not in the fight against addictions alone. No matter how many times addictions knock us down. We some how will always find a way to get off the ground. Our fight against addiction sometimes seem merciless but we Jump Thru Darkness nevertheless. So don’t keep negative things in your eyes. Because nothing not even color or race, education, or crimes makes you immune to addictions might. So as you work your sobriety remember we all are fighting the same fight….JTD

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Fighting Yourself And Still Lose…

You be determined to stay sober and clean. You made a plan no more clubbing on the weekend. You drive fast past the liquor store looking the other way. When your friends ask you do you want to smoke you say you already high. Working your steps to your sobriety program leads you into a fight with yourself. You can’t remember what happened the night before. All you can think about is how you ended up passed out on the floor. Empty beer bottles surround the door. Your favorite song is playing on repeat pissing off the people next door. Mud on your shoes says you went walking. Wondering if you forgot to Jump Thru Darkness. Then you get a call from a friend and the friend says man how was your binge. Your friend then said you had a fight with yourself over your addictions. It seems your sobriety was the cost. Because you had a fight with yourself and lost……JTD

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Tell Your Addiction Bye

From the moment a bird is born it wants to fly. When it finally is ready it takes to the sky. The bird spends its whole life testing the winds of might. Reaching with wings to every part of why. Until one day the wind doesn’t blew and the bird falls from the sky. As the bird falls it has no regrets it simply whispers to the sky and says bye. Jump Thru Darkness and even as you fall from your addictions, let these words be the ones you remember. Like that bird that lived life high. As you get sober and clean don’t forget to tell your addictions bye……JTD

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What Do You Turn Too….

What do you turn to when you have nothing to eat. What do you turn to when you barely have shoes on your feet. They tell you to go to church but its only open once a week. What happens the other six days when you have nowhere to sleep. Yeah I wanna know who helps you so they can help me too. Oh you have some liquor and weed you would like to share with me. But I was really trying to Jump Thru Darkness and find out what I should do. So while you keep getting drunk and high, I’m be trying to win my sobriety and fight for my life. If I only knew what or who to turn too. Maybe I’ll get high and have a drink with you. Then maybe just maybe I’ll figure out what I should do. Close the door I don’t feel like trying anymore do you…JTD

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Their Addiction Story…

He started drinking in college. A southern boy trying to stay warm. She had self esteem issues so she would drink to feel sociable. They meet at a freshman dance instead of dancing they left and ending up drunk in his dorm room. They depended on each other all the way to graduation day. They enjoyed the day with smoke and drinks. That’s when she told him they had a baby on the way. But even the baby didn’t stop her from having her drink. He had a drink before work. He had a drink during lunch break at work. He had plenty of drinks after work. He was passed out drunk in the car at the hospital when his child was born. They both got drunk when they got the new born home. They both were drunk when the house caught on fire. So drunk they didn’t hear the baby crying. When they were found both had bottles of burned up liquor in their hands. With all things Jump Thru Darkness and watch some habits of daily life. Cause those daily habits could one day end your life………JTD

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Fighting For Your Smile (Addictions )

Remember sitting and eating pickles with a soda. Remember pickle eggs and now and later candy. Remember how having a crush on someone felt. Remember smiling if that person said yeah. It didn’t even matter what they was saying yeah to as long as the yeah was to you. Remember before your addiction when you enjoyed seeing the sun rise. Remember smiling before bedtime saying goodnight before you close your eyes. You covered in addictions now but you want a way out. Jump Thru Darkness stop the role of an addict. If it helps say it was just a part you was playing. Then pick a new role for yourself. Don’t rush into any new role. Let your hope for sobriety put you far upon a new road. Stay on that road and when you feel you have been on that new road with your new role for a mile. Stop and notice you no longer will have to remember happiness of a child because you’ll have a brand new sobriety smile….JTD

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That Talk ….

So do you need that talk to better yourself. Or do you just feel like you need that talk cause your lover left. You say you need that talk because you relapsed when you went for a walk. You say you knew you needed that talk that day you went robing and got caught. At least that’s what you said when you recorded your message on that collect call. You even said you was doing better because of stolen drawls. Now you drunk and high ready to change your life and you’ll have that talk as soon as you finish that last drink and smoke. You asked what time the Jumping Thru Darkness movie will start. So drunk and high if it was a movie it would start with you needing that talk………….Jtd

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Helping A Addict Get Off The Ground….

Follow these words closely. You walking down the street of life. To your left is all the things you got right. You move your head slowly to the other side and we all know why. Never mind all the things you did wrong cause we all know life goes on. As you move forward you notice an addict who is down on their luck. Your heart Jumps Thru Darkness and says help them up. You walk closer and kneel down to help the addict. The addict says , who are you and what do you want. You say , I am here to help you up. The addict then says help me for what, I am just fine right here with my weed and wine. Do you give up or do you give it everything you have to get them up. If you was sober and clean you would notice those are the words you are saying to yourself as you sit there. Well I told you to follow these words closely. Cause you could, can , and might be that addict in need…..JTD

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Knowing What’s Good…

Most people look and smell anything and everything before they put it in their mouths. We look at meat in stores like we picking a lover. It has to look right, be smelling the package to make sure it smell right. Eyeing the price to make sure it’s worth all that, just like dating. But when it comes to our addictions do we really know what’s good. If you had a bad batch of beer or liquor how would you know? I bet you never ever checked the expiration date on a beer can or liquor bottle. You put it in your mouth and don’t even know where it came from or what it’s made of, true talk. Never truly knowing what you are putting in your mouth. So Jump Thru Darkness and stop putting yourself down for those over the top actions of a drunk. You and no one else can explain the ways of an alcoholic. Cause no one can truly explain the drinks of an alcoholic. Yeah I’m sober now but I still won’t pick up a drink to read the label. I’m not that strong to be saying I can just hold one Can in my hand. If I asked myself would I drink it. I would have to say I probably would. Know how far you can go and think about the unknown that you put in your mouth. Cause it’s the same unknown for the rich up on the hill and the corners down in the hood. But for what it’s worth Jumping Thru Darkness for Sobriety is Knowing What’s Good…….JTD

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Why Do All Hangovers Leave You Alone…

Well I would ask if you ever been drunk or high. But you should never have to ask a chicken does it know how to lay an egg. Just one thing, have you noticed that most hangovers appear when we are alone. Is it trying to tell us that we have no one to blame but ourselves as we look around our empty room. Even if someone is there we really don’t want to talk or look at them. Secretly feeling like if they loved us they would have stopped us before we had one too many. Who are we kidding we liked that painful, aching, ailment, affliction, vomiting, gagging, nausea, indisposition, leaning on the bed feeling. But why are we often left alone to deal with all that. Let’s Jump Thru Darkness and think about that. Is it showing us a lonely future if we carry on. Or is it saying in the end even the empty bottle finds a garbage can so it can roll on. Maybe it’s saying after the party all that’s left is pain for the dumb. Because in our era being less than one hundred percent will lead you to a bottomless pit of addictions. So if you won anything in life remember to win your sobriety as well. Cause if you don’t the next lonely hangover you wake up with can be in jail or hell…….JTD

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Deliver Peace To Yourself From Your Sobriety….

If you get the urge to order out make sure its comes with some fresh sobriety. If you from the hood or ghetto you probably got drunk and high so you didn’t have to think about how many people be smiling in your face as friends. All while hoping a bullet or a cop brings your story to an unhappy end. If you a business owner, doctor, or lawyer and all others that worked hard to play hard. You probably feel you don’t have an addiction because of your job. Well thinking like that is something but can we really call thinking like that smart. No matter if you running from the law. At least you can try to better yourself from within even if you dirty eternally. Do that by ordering your sobriety. So you not a criminal and in the best seats a person can have as a job. Just stand up and depends on how tall you are just notice when it comes to addictions the fall isn’t that far from where you standing for you to hit the ground. So Jump Thru Darkness and remember to order some sobriety with your head held high and a smile…JTD

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Alcoholism ( Is Your Happiness Real )…

From having your first drink from a beer you stole out the refrigerator at 13 years old. To running a fortune 500 company and drinking DIVA VODKA that costs 1 Million Dollars a bottle to help you enjoy life. What is truly the happiness of it all. I mean is your happiness making yourself feel intoxicated and doing things you wouldn’t normally do. Your happiness is saying things you would never say sober. I mean maybe your happiness involves a two day hangover that’s so bad it makes you hate water. Jump Thru Darkness and understand that all that alcoholic happiness is you acting and feelings like someone else and not yourself. So if you act different and talk different is that happiness real? Maybe that’s what a hangover is about all that fake alcoholic happiness leaving your body. Leaving you with your own feelings of pain and sickness. Try to laugh and dance Sober. Try a date with your lover Sober. When you feel you have earned a reward let your reward be a clean and sober day. No more living a fake happiness that often leaves your life in a mess. Finally being soberly happy while Jumping Thru Darkness……JTD

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Is Dizziness From Your Addictions Or Your Lifestyle…

You say you have a hangover. You say you have a stomach ache. You say you have a toothache. You say it’s hard to see and think straight. But you sober and clean so when you mix all that up tell me the name of that cake. Seems that’s a dizzy cake with an after buzz flavor. It hits many days after becoming sober and others months and years before they notice; The after effect of the addictions on their mind, body and soul. The dizziness can be short or it can be long but for most things seem clear no headaches at all. But you can’t stop your hand from shaking. It’s even hard to remember Monday on Thursday because you get dizzy on Wednesdays. You follow all the rules of sobriety but still can’t understand the mental mess of dizziness that makes you feel a little off in life. You use to get everything right now dizziness seems to be the lead in your newly found sober ride. Jump Thru Darkness and hold your ground. Stay in place and stick it out for your sobriety, so one day when the dizziness stops your feet will be standing in the right spot…..JTD

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One To Many…

I HAD JUST GOTTEN ENGAGED AND WENT OUT WITH THE BOYS TO PARTY. I STARTED DRINKING AT ONE IN THE AFTERNOON. BY EIGHT THE FELLOWS CALLED AND SAID MEET THEM AT THE CLUB. ALL I KNOW IS I ARRIVED AT A CLUB AT 12 THAT NIGHT THREE CITIES OVER. SEE I HAD TO CATCH THE BUS TO THE CLUB AND MY DRUNK MIND SAID GREYHOUND WAS FASTER. I CAN REMEMBER THIS CHICK WALKING UP AND HANDING ME A DRINK. SHE GAVE ME AS MANY DRINKS AS I COULD HOLD AND TOOK ME HOME. THE NEXT DAY SHE PUT IT ON ME AGAIN AND I DIDN’T WANT TO LEAVE. SO SHE GOT ME A JOB WORKING WITH HER. I FELT I WAS JUMPING THRU DARKNESS AND STARTING OVER. YEAH I FELT THAT WAY UNTIL ONE DAY I LOOKED OUT THE WINDOW AND MY FIANCEE WAS STANDING IN THE FRONT YARD. I WALKED OUT AND SHE SAID EXPLAIN YOURSELF. ALL I COULD SAY IS BABY I HAD ONE TWO MANY……JTD

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Create New Doors…

They say there are programs for kids to get off drugs and go back to school. They say there are programs that help babies with babies learn new moves. If stopping the youth and saving their life is the plan, why kick them out of school in the first place my friends. Most low income kids only think of the one thing they can do without a job or being educated. That’s having a boyfriend or getting a girl pregnant. A bit of what most adults have to make those youth feel they have purpose in these empty lands. To be nothing on educated paper or on a job site but to be called fathers or mothers makes their lives feel right. Disappointment is beaten down by blunts and cheaply made but expensive drinks. Then if you ask them who they are they will never say addict cause that’s not how they think. Lets Jump Thru Darkness and understand everyone plays apart in the world of addicts. Open your eyes and see that choice for some is the only choice they have to feel they have purpose. The world doesn’t train the youth for the future anymore because most of the trainers themselves are waiting on the big score. So for them all drunks, addicts,etc..forget about programs and opening old sores. Lets Jump Thru Darkness and create new doors…..JTD

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Sobriety And Medication Problems…

AS YOU JUMP THRU DARKNESS ON ALCOHOLIC ROAD TO STAY SOBER. YOU MAY NOT NOTICE SOME ISSUES WITH MEDICATIONS THAT YOU MAY TAKE. TO MOST PEOPLE MEDICATION IS A BLESSING. TO AN ALCOHOLIC MEDICATION CAN JUST BE ANOTHER FORM OF ALCOHOL THAT ENTERS YOUR SYSTEM. THE MEDICATION OF ANY KIND IS A DRUG. IF YOU ARE A ADDICT IT DOESN’T HELP YOU STAY CLEAN. IF YOU ARE AN ALCOHOLIC DON’T BE FOOLED BECAUSE YOU DON’T FEEL DRUNK. THE MEDICATION IS AFFECTING YOU JUST AS MUCH AS ALCOHOL AFFECTED YOU. IN ORDER TO JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND TRULY STAY SOBER. YOU MIGHT HAVE TO WATCH WHAT YOU TAKE WHEN IT COMES TO MEDICATION. ALSO TELL YOUR DOCTOR YOU ARE WORKING YOUR SOBRIETY PROGRAM(JTD). SO THEY CAN GIVE YOU MEDICATION THAT KEEPS YOUR BODY FREE FROM DRUGS. OFTEN TIMES PEOPLE REPLACE ALCOHOL WITH MEDICATION GETTING THEM HOOKED ON PILLS. SO FIND NATURAL WAYS TO EASE PAIN IF YOU CAN. IF YOU GET A COLD GET YOU SOME APPLE CIDER VINEGER AND SOME LEMON JUICE WITH A LITTLE HONEY MIX IT UP AND DRINK IT FOR COLD MEDICATION. IF YOU MIX IT RIGHT IT SHOULD TASTE LIKE THERAFLU. LETS FACE IT MEDICATION ISN’T CHEAP SO THIS WAY YOU CAN EVEN GET ALL THESE THINGS WITH FOOD STAMPS AND STAY HEALTHY. I USE THIS MYSELF AND IT WORKS. ALSO START TAKING FISH OIL OR FLAX SEED OIL IN THE FALL IT HELPS TO FIGHT AGAINST THE FLU AND INFLAMMATION DOING THE WINTER MONTHS. WHICH ALLOWS YOU TO KEEP YOUR BODY FREE FROM DRUGS AND ALCOHOL ALL WHILE JUMPING THRU DARKNESS ON ALCOHOLIC ROAD…….JTD

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Addicts They Say You’re No Better Than Dirt…

YOU MAY FEEL HOPELESS BECAUSE OF YOUR CRIMINAL RECORD. IT MAKES YOU FEEL YOU HAVE NO CHANCE IN LIFE BUT THE WAYS OF THE STREETS. EVEN IF YOU SMART AND EDUCATED YOU KNOW ONE ARREST AND YOU FLIPPING PENNIES IN THE WISHING WELL LIKE ALL THE OTHERS. IF YOU WAS A TEACHER YOU CAN’T TEACH ANYMORE. IF YOU WAS A BOSS YOU KNOW YOUR DAYS OF HOLDING THE COMPANY DOWN ARE GONE. YOU LOOK AT YOUR KIDS AND HATE THAT ONE DAY YOU WILL LEAVE EARTH. YOU LOVE BEING THEIR PROTECTOR NOW BUT ONE DAY YOU WILL BE GONE. THE HEARTS OF THE UNJUST WISH TO LIVE FOREVER. RATHER ITS FOR THE LOVE OF THEIR CHILDREN OR THE PAIN OF LEAVING FOREVER. WHEN YOU SEE PEOPLE THAT HAVE HAD PROBLEMS REMEMBER NO ONE OR NOTHING IS REALLY BETTER. DIRT MADE YOUR HOMES. DIRT MADE THE WALLS. DIRT BUILT MOUNTAINS AND EVEN THE ROADS. IF EVERYTHING WE USE IN LIFE HAS SOME DIRT IN IT. WHY ARE WE SO QUICK TO CONDEMN PEOPLE WHO ARE WEAK IN IT. LETS JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND GIVE MORE SUPPORT TO THOSE WHOM MAY NEED OR WANT TO RECOVER FROM THEIR ADDICTIONS. JUST LIKE WE STRENGTHEN DIRT TO MAKE A HOME. LETS STRENGTHEN OUR LOVE FOR THE UNJUST ALL AROUND. HELPING THEM TO FIND BETTER WAYS TO LIVE. CAUSE SOME DIRT HELPS US BUILD……..JTD

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That Old Buddy Of Mine Named Bottle Of Wine…

Dear buddy you were the best bud a drunk could find. You were always there when it was hard times. Like most friends you didn’t abandon me when I was broke. In the middle of the night you was still with me no matter where I wanted to go. When I had to vomit from drinking to much, You was right there with some more. When I did change clothes, well you all know a drunk keeps drinks not a wardrobe. But you had a variety like a rich person’s closet inside a home. When my ex put me out the house. Like a superhero you flew through the window and knocked her new lover out. You even gave me the last swallow before you dashed into the window. But now to get sober and clean means I must Jump Thru Darkness and walk alone further. I truly enjoyed being your friend and hope one day all friends with bottles become sober…..JTD

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Life Can Make You FEEL Like Being Sober Is WRONG…

Just sitting in a chair and I started thinking about all the things that make an addiction what it is in life. From medicine that gets you hooked. To smoking weeds from the ground that everyone wants. When the criminals look less than the leaders when it comes to being crooks. Hoping the bible does get banned for being an open minded book. Adults that say learning about sexual identities is better than learning math under thirteen. So when you see and hear all that it kinda does make you want to drink and smoke. Standing in the middle of a field of confusion feeling like sobriety was the wrong choice chosen. Asking for help just to be laughed at by an drunken angel. With only hope on your side you still must Jump Thru Darkness and stick it out for the long ride. Forget about dreams and pride, don’t rush just stay focused and take your time. And instead of addictions give sobriety one helluva ride…..JTD

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Saving Yourself From Your Addictions…

Truth is you can do any and every program to get sober and clean that you can find. Problem with that is none of them will work if getting sober and clean is not deep inside your mind. The number one program you should learn is about loving and saving yourself. A hard fact is no one really cares about your situation as long as your situation does not cause problems in their situations. As far as many others are concerned you can be as drunk and as high as you want as long as you are leaving them alone. But that is okay because most addicts get drunk and high alone. More for me is the best words of an addict. The drinks and drugs become friends and family. But Jump Thru Darkness and decide to save yourself. Show the demons of addictions that you have some fight left. And most of all fight against your addictions for yourself…..JTD

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Lift Your Head …

Listen most of us barely can put the light bill in our own names. We will never be able to pull a new car off the car lot in the same year we are living in. We all drive cars five to twenty years older than the latest model. Many would be homeless if they didn’t know how to fake a pay stub to get a place to stay. Or making it to college and clever minds work together with clothes hangers to rig the washer and dryer so everybody could stay clean. Jump Thru Darkness and lift your head up. Everybody has to learn to survive someway in life. Your addiction is no different than anybody else’s problems in life. We all have to build our own boats like Noah. Truth is many don’t know life that doesn’t have a problem in it. If you not worrying about anything you must be dead. I would say sleep but some of y’all know sleep don’t stop the worrying of how to pay the bills. The worrying of how to protect your kids. The worrying of finding job interviews for your lover on the couch. All while hiding your own failing health. If nothing else in your addictions Jump Thru Darkness when you have nothing left and hold your head up. Not for anyone else but for yourself………JTD

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Inside A Cube ( ADDICTIONS)…

Okay lets talk about a feeling you might have while battling for your sobriety. The feeling of being a small box inside a Rubik’s Cube that’s inside a larger Rubik’s Cube with no sense or direction of where you belong. Finding your sobriety can feel like that everyday. Or standing in the middle of a pitch black room and reaching for the door, just to notice it seems the dark room has no walls or floors.You reach out with both hands reaching for a doorknob that’s seems to move every time you get closer. Trapped inside an endless darkness of puzzled moves that repeat your addictions over and over. Jump Thru Darkness and stop trying to solve the Rubik’s Cube puzzle of addictions with repeating bad moves. Stand in place and let sobriety move for you. No more reaching into the darkness just to grab hold of more addiction hopelessness. Stand still and find sobriety as you Jump Thru Darkness and let your sobriety solve the puzzle of being a small box inside a Rubik’s Cube……JTD

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NEXT DAY HANGOVER MEMORIES…

Sitting on the floor in a dark room looking at the sun in the window. Worried if that’s someone’s body laying past the door. Your head starts to hurt and the hangover memories begin. You remember how it did begin. You remember dancing in the club. You don’t remember who you was kissing but when they said come on you held on. You remember running from a dog and kissing more while falling down. You remember your friends saying something but those kisses made the words pointless. You should really start Jumping Thru Darkness as soon as you remember how you ended up on the floor of an abandoned apartment. Now this could be a real scary moment if you are a woman. But the darkness doesn’t care about gender. So even a man would be scared looking towards that window….JTD

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Strength…

As it seems your addictions make you feel like you strong and can handle anything. But truth is nothing can be more wrong. While playing in your addictions you tend to worry less. You think less about things that when sober you can’t get out of your head. Giving you that feeling that you are stronger than those mind worries or fears. That seems to always be there in your life when sober. When you Jump Thru Darkness you will finally feel your strength. The strength of being able to be okay with your flaws. The strength to forgive yourself for barely ever being right and always being wrong. The strength to Jump Thru Darkness and get sober and clean and move forward….JTD

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Empty sober ( A Fading Dark Addiction)…

If you are waiting to feel sober. Buy a never-ending clock because that feeling often never comes. Today you don’t feel sober. Yesterday you didn’t feel sober. But Jump Thru Darkness and hope for that same empty feeling tomorrow. Just like an empty glass that use to have addictions in it. Empty is that feeling that lets you know you are sober and clean. So when you start feeling that way be proud you are finally becoming empty of addictions. Not every cloud stays dark during a storm. Some get brighter with time. So can your battle for sobriety. During your battle for sobriety the wind may blow strong and your faith may become weakened. But Jump Thru Darkness and know that the light of your sobriety is Fading the darkness of your addictions….JTD

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Don’t…

One word can hold you together when nothing else seems to work. The word DON’T can be the only thing your ears need to hear. Don’t smoke that. Don’t drink that. If you out of money DON’T steal that six pack. Don’t lie to your lover just to buy another. Some things will make you want to reset time cause addictions are in your mind. Somethings will bring feelings of doing a crime to your mind. But Jump Thru Darkness and hear the word DON’T. Cause no matter how you feel and what you want to do. If you DON’T you WON’T……JTD

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Visions Of Feelings (Addictions)…

Addictions are often visions of feelings you wish you really had. While inside your hours of addictions you can smile and laugh. You have the courage to dance and sing. You find it easy to talk to that person you have been dreaming about. Those fears that make you hug your own self seem to disappear. Simply visions of you inside a life of no worries at all. Well besides running out of money or being drunk and high before the party. Then you end up missing it all. Passed out on a floor or couch while everyone else shows your passed out dreams what a happy feeling is all about. Jump Thru Darkness and feel the visions of a happy sober life. Try to smile sober like you do when addictions have you mind. Elbow your fears and talk to him or her anyway. Bring that drug or alcoholic happiness into focus in your sober atmosphere. Then you will see that your addictions were just visions of feelings that wasn’t there…JTD

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The Word Reward Can Make You An Addict……

You will hear many stories about how someone became an alcoholic or a addict. The stories all have the same theme for most.Things like a bad childhood and abuse are at the top of the list for addiction excuses. What is not told is those that live right. Those that finish school and go to college. Those that finish college and get the good job. Those that feel they deserve a reward. So they reward themselves with a night out with some drinks or something to smoke. Depends on how good they make their lives. The rewards come more and more over and over again. Soon they find themselves an addict of rewards. The reward addiction then will have their eyes, breath, head and clothes all looking like they had a bad childhood and was abused. So Jump Thru Darkness and understand no status in society is protected from addictions. So when you treat yourself be smart and think of sobriety when you say the word reward…..