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Fighting for your Dignity and Decency

Dear addictions,

You have taken my dignity and decency. While under addictions spell everything seems to be well. You do and learn things that seem okay in all live. But you never see the cost is your dignity and decency right. As addicts we sleep around, masturbate, cheat, lie, etc… and all in the world seems good. Your body will always like to feel good. Once you Jump Thru Darkness and become clean, you will notice that addictions still exist even when the drugs and alcohol are put down. You will notice habits you learned while in your addiction, that threatens your dignity and decency. It never bothered you before because your body loved it all. Now and forever more is the time to fight once more. You must Jump Thru Darkness to fight for your decency and dignity and return to normal. Don’t worry about being right or becoming a christian. Just worry about earning back your dignity and decency, while Jumping Thru Darkness with your sobriety…JTD

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Sobriety Is That Love Lost..

I would always say that I was alone. Whenever bad things happened I would swear no one cared about me. The drink was my family and friend. It really made me look for the wrong and sadness in everyone and everything. Making me need it more than a better life. When I became sober I learned that the endless pit of sadness and wrong was all created by me wanting to be a drunk. Fights with family and friends can all be added to the urge to have a reason to drink. Yes at first it started out fun with family and friends. Then it was every drink at every grouping that ended in arguments, so I would have a reason to lock myself alone in a room with my drink. Feelings like a person looking for a lost love drunken and alone. But when I tasted sobriety it was like a hidden gift to me. I no longer felt I needed love because for some reason I felt loved. I understand that for you things might feel as if you have lost a love. But no matter what it may cost, hold on to your sobriety cause it can be that love that you lost……..

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A.. STORY…

Well I kept walking after the story. I didn’t go back because I didn’t believe in sharing my beer lol….
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BIRD

You want to know what holding on to your sobriety really feels like. Well picture you just came home from the pet store. At that store you found the cutest bird with the softest feathers. Soon after day one, you will begin to learn what holding on to your sobriety, really means. In this case sobriety means bird. As you put the bird inside it’s cage for the first day. Sobriety means stable like a bird in a cage. On day two you take the bird and chain it to the balcony ledge. Sobriety means not to far to fast. On day three you put the bird on the ledge without chains. Sobriety means hoping the bird don’t fly away. That’s what sobriety and JUMPING THRU DARKNESS means everyday……..JTD

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Undeniable

As we look at all things in this world, we must learn to become more than what is believed to be our level of accomplishment. When you begin to JUMP THRU DARKNESS with sobriety, life, or even life choices and your own responsibility. Remember no one really likes the winner of the race. Let’s picture the ending of a great race, where everyone is cheering; even passing out balloons, as you raise your hand in victory. The saying goes don’t think people are happy for you. That’s what I was told when I began JUMPING THRU DARKNESS. But in my mind that didn’t bump me around at all. Cause I knew I was putting in the sobriety work to stay sober and rebuild something like a king’s life from scratch. Remember your greatest weapon isn’t telling them you are better. Your greatest weapon isn’t winning their friendship or enjoying funny colored balloons. Nope your greatest weapon is becoming undeniable in your fight for sobriety….JTD

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Hang on…

Let’s chat a little. So you love to drink and that’s okay. But what about all your memories. You know the memories from when you made your kids. Oh you just remember the hangover. What about when your child first started walking. Oh you didn’t see their first steps because the cup was up to your face. Okay so you woke up one morning you know with the heat from your nose making you feel like a dragon. With a headache that made you feel like you spent the night nailing up a window with your head. Then you walk in the living room and everyone is looking at you like you in the wrong house. Or that friend you be around all day sober but you seem to love to start fights with when you drunk. No wonder that friend barely answers your call. You be on top of the world with a drink. But deep inside the feeling of somethings wrong is always there. Something maybe but you will never blame the alcohol. So all you can do is JUMP THRU DARKNESS until you realize it maybe the the alcohol and just hang on……..JTD

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BAD BATCH ?

You ever wonder why drinks of any kind seem to be perfect. Meat gets recalled. Even water seems to turn bad in bottles. But wine just gets better with age. And no one knows when beer in bad. One would say beer is bad when it’s gone. But what if the wine or beer you drink should have been on a recall list. Who has the job of tasting every drink. How is alcohol of any kind proven safe to drink. Can you imagine a drunk taster telling the world it’s safe to drink. Try JUMPING THRU DARKNESS and wondering the next time you have a drink in your hand. Is that drink safe? Does beer spoil? Yes it makes you drunk and feel good but what else can it be doing to you? We have grade a beef but when it comes to alcohol all you have is how it tastes. Beware the unregulated armor of alcohol. Because it might look great inside the bottle but you will never see where it might have come from. Now every company says they clean. But you can wash a folk and it still may have food on it. I just want you to think a little along ALCOHOLIC ROAD……..JTD

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MIND, BODY, AND SOUL

We are promised a great heaven in the end. I can’t lie if i didn’t say the good of heaven doesn’t seem like it can ease the pain of living. If we measured the feelings we have on earth and compare them to a promise of heaven one might say it doesn’t seem worth it. You plant a garden just to watch others walk through it over and over. We might have to JUMP THRU DARKNESS and understand heaven is the heaven we create while living. Addiction can hold you down and make you hate the way you entered life and dread the way you leave life. We must fight to live before life becomes just another moment in hell. M.I.N.D…MILLIONS IN NATIONS DIE, B.O.D.Y… BLESSINGS OVER DAILY YEARNINGS & S.O.U.L…SAVING, OVERCOMING, UNITING & LEADING . Is what we need to do as people too one day feel like heaven is there. Or JUMP THRU DARKNESS and lay down a brick to help create a heaven for us all. Yet the darkness is strong but for yourself find joy in a smile and move forward slowly. It might take you awhile but hold your head up to the devil and never back down……JTD

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Pickle, Pill, and a Pillow

Further along the story I found myself feeling pain in both my legs. Feeling like Dr. who after being remade I felt I was finally okay fighting addiction and living good and clean. I made a appointment to see the doctor about the pain. I went to the store and wanted a pickle. I had my pickle when I entered the office. As I laid back on the bed for MY x ray I was finishing the last piece of pickle. I had a pill for my pain in my pocket so I popped it fast. As I was laying there feeling good from the pill and pickle. The doctor told me arthritis was in both my knees. As they rolled me back to the other room to change while I was laying there something made it hard for me to feel bad. It was the pillow. It was the softest pillow I had ever felt. Now it might have been one damn good pill and one great tasting pickle. But nevertheless I was already thinking about JUMPING THRU DARKNESS cause arthritis haven’t met me yet. Even if no one beats health we can always fight to show health we will always care………

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SOBRIETY MEANS LETTING GO OF SOME MUSIC

The hardest day ever was the day when I laid my walk-man on the dresser and walked outside without it. As I walked it seemed as if I was in a new world. I lived by those words in them songs. Some songs seem as if they were about me and some wasn’t. But in real life that music wasn’t for me. I was smart not a lame. I could make my own history not just copy words from a song just to pretend. Then I saw a car driving fast with them boys giving chase. The song they was playing was good. But it didn’t help when the telephone pole attacked the cars hood. They jumped out running leaving the car and the song behind. I bopped my head to the song as I walked by. Then the boys caught them man dudes couldn’t even rhyme. Now living a life in another persons song got them doing time. I guess they should have left them ghetto songs along. Cause not even the singers of those songs last to long. Then drugs and drinking can make you feel like you the star of it all when you hear the sound. When in reality you’re nothing but another crackhead or drunk looking and acting like a clown. So jump thru darkness and start a new before the drugs, drinking and song turn into the blues. So when you do decide to get clean remember that means all the drug, gangster, and hood trap music too…….JTD

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YOU, ME, AND WE

You learned the streets can be hell. Me well I learned drugs and alcohol can create hell. We learned it’s easier when you get into trouble as a kid but quickly found out that’s different when you become a man. You learned to watch when someone else is rolling the blunt. Me I learned from watching you not to smoke blunts. We learned that sometimes who is doing the smoking doesn’t matter when you get pulled over. You learned a new number to post bail. Me I learned you told the cop it was both of our weed. We learned nobody wants to fall alone in the game. You learned your strikes was at three. Me I didn’t look back when I became free. Then like a hungry man saving a cows life. I JUMPED THRU DARKNESS and bailed you out. You, me, and we both knew why. Cause if we acted like friends neither one of us would have gotten out. So YOU, ME, AND WE make the two sides to every street….JTD

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THE DARKEST HOURS

Times seem unreal. We hoped for change and got monopoly instead. Just thinking about the pending darkness to come makes your soul want to run. Yet in the beginning was the word and in our times the word is JUMPING THRU DARKNESS. The words that shall help you hold it together. Even the writer of these words is holding on to something. For life today seems like a sinking ship yet we don’t run we just grab a better grip. These are days of sober minds cause the intoxicated will surely drown. Even if in the days to come you find yourself falling down. Wait for a moment and look around so you can see all the others on that same ground. Then as you rise remember you are blessed and this world shall not keep you down. Stay sober and clean and JUMP THRU DARKNESS in this worlds darkest hours…….JTD

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Reshaping To Save Or Youth

It once was summer youth programs where kids over 12 could get a summer job. It once was rec centers that offered programs for low income kids. Nowadays you look to the local ymca or park districts just to find that the prices cost more than your rent. I would like to see social services team with the park districts to offer low income families one free program a year. Programs like cooking, building maintenance, auto repair, or sports. To help keep kids age 12 and up off the streets during the summer or even winter and teaching them skills that will help them even without a college degree. We train or kids to be college grads but do nothing for those who might just be blue collar workers. We should JUMP THRU DARKNESS and start reshaping our minds for our youth. Make the prices for programs reachable for low income families and many will reach out. Nevertheless this is just a thought and not an order yet…….JTD

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WOULD YOU ENTER HEAVEN ALONE…

HOW DO YOU REALLY FIX YOUR EMOTIONS. HOW DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW YOU SHOULD REALLY FEEL. YOU CAN’T REALLY COPY OTHERS CAUSE THEIR EMOTIONS MIGHT BE WORSE THAN YOURS. FROM CRYING ALONE IN A DARK ROOM. TO ACTING BRAVE WHILE WALKING IN THE HOOD. EMOTIONS SEEM TO GOVERN OR WAYS EACH AND EVERYDAY. I ONCE SAID IF WE DIDN’T HAVE EMOTIONS WE WOULD BE OKAY. SO HERE’S THE QUESTION IF GOD SAID YOU COULD ENTER HEAVEN BUT NO ONE YOU LOVED OR HAVE EVER KNOWN WOULD BE ABLE TO GO IN. WOULD YOU STILL ENTER? WOULD YOUR EMOTIONS AND LOVE FOR OTHERS STOP YOU FROM ENTERING. THINK ABOUT IT MANY TIMES ALREADY YOU PUT YOUR OWN LIFE ON HOLD BECAUSE OF EMOTIONS FOR OR FROM OTHERS. WILL YOU FIND YOURSELF IN THE END DOING THE SAME THING. OR WILL YOU JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND WALK ON IN. IT’S OKAY TO LOVE YOURSELF EVEN WHEN YOU CAN’T DO THE SAME FOR OTHERS. AFTER ALL I CAN FEEL MY HEART BEAT. BUT I CAN’T REALLY SAY OTHERS EVEN HAVE A HEART. SO JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND IF YOU LIVE BY EMOTIONS MAKE SURE YOUR CHOICES ARE SMART………JTD

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THE AROUSAL OF ADDICTIONS

Let’s prepare ourselves for the journey and arousal of the new year. You went down alcoholic road and faced a mental battle in the end. As you began to JUMP THRU DARKNESS in the last years you felt you could win. Yet the addiction demons are stronger and some even have friends. You can’t really want something to smoke without a drink in hand. Remember that when you JUMPED THRU DARKNESS you became a new person my friend. Yet always remember the tiny warning at the bottom of your sobriety. It says even after you change for the better your addictions just get stronger and clever. So no matter what your face may look like after you earn your sobriety. JUMP THRU DARKNESS and keep riding. The darkness of addictions has many forms. So in this new year PRAY, STAY FOCUSED, AND MOST OF ALL LEAVE THE DRINKS AND DRUGS ALONE AND KEEP JUMPING THRU DARKNESS………JTD

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!