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Standing On The Line…

Holding on to the last hope of right. Not remembering actions from any night. While every one surrounds saying every action isn’t right. Understanding of all seems dark as night. Listening to people standing in the same line talk about your life. If you Jump Thru Darkness you may notice many fall from the line. Thinking being better than you will give them balance. But hold on to whatever is helping you no matter. When it comes to a better chance let Sobriety in for a change. Now nothing in life will really change so don’t play no games. But you will be able to handle life better and be fine. As you hold on like the rest of us while standing on the line……JTD

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The Bottle Told Me…

When I’m sober I trust every word you say. When I’m drunk the wisdom of my bottle leads the way. Honestly my bottle told me to rip the words from your face. My bottle said you seem to never be able to tell the truth anyway. I asked if you were cheating and you said you was gay. I asked if you liked pink and you said yeah the other way. To drunk to try to solve your word games, so I let my bottle lead the way. For a moment I did try to Jump Thru Darkness and wonder if my drinking had me feeling that way. You would have won until out the corner of my eye I saw the smirk on your face. Now i’m trying to explain to the judge how you got glass from the bottle in your face. And when the judge asked how I started feeling that way. All I could say is well the bottle told me…….JTD

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Accept, Except (Sobriety)…

Can it rain without a cloud? You often fish all day giving fish free worms with no return. Even an hair cut starts to grow the minute you put the clippers down. All theses things you seem to accept. And when it comes to your life things seem golden except for your addictions. Yeah you accept that your pants are the wrong color and that’s fine except they are too small for you. Yes you accept the fact that you are an addict. Except the next words out your mouth is always you can handle it. You find it easy to accept the hand you have been dealt. Except you sitting at a lonely table playing with addictions by yourself. Jump Thru Darkness and don’t accept your addictive faith. Cause all ways addiction will fail you leaving nothing left except sobriety……JTD

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Today Begin With Sobriety…

When you play cards you pick the best partner when you start the game. When you date you try to pick the best out of whats available to love. When in your addictions you pick the best drinks and the best drugs. So when it comes to your sobriety will you pick the best options for you. Or will you pick the worst card player. Maybe you will pick the worst lover standing outside of any club or store and take them home. You might buy all the drinks and drugs with no labels or good smell. Instead of a good apartment you call your friends couch home. When it rains you do get to wash the clothes you have on. How you go play your game? Without sobriety and Jumping Thru Darkness you playing like a hobo on a runaway train. But if you wanna win and listen to me. Today begin with Sobriety……JTD

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Remember To Cheer For Yourself….

What’s good old friend it’s been a minute. Seems addictions changed us. But respect and love is something we will always have left. Addictions can have you feeling like no one cares, but no matter sitting beside you or many cities away. Always hoping that we both Jump Thru Darkness is the thought of everyday. So as you begin or continue your addiction fight. Remember to cheer for yourself cause i’ll also be cheering for our sobriety alright…….JTD

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If Being Sober & Clean Is Hard For You, Your Everyday Life Must Be Hell…….

Being sober seems to take all your fun away. Being clean seems to run your soul away. You only see life with clear eyes about two hours a day. You like to get refilled when your kids go to play. You have even started to enjoy being high and drunk alone when your lover is away. Don’t have to ask how you felt yesterday because drunk and high is how you feel everyday. Are you running from the overwhelming truth of life day to day? Try Jumping Thru Darkness and trying to find away at least once a week to live sober and clean for real. Cause if being sober and clean is hard for you, your everyday life must be hell…..JTD

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Are You Really Sober ?…

The key to all things in sobriety is effort. But many confuse effort with side cuts. Instead of buying liquor they buy the grocery store shelf wine and say there isn’t any alcohol in it. Instead of smoking weed they buy cigars with liquor in it and say its clean smoke. So all this leads me to ask are you really sober. Or is it just another way to hide the addictions going on in your life. Jump Thru Darkness and ask yourself are you really sober. Cause a short cut doesn’t stay hidden for long. Then when you back in your addictions all you will be able to do is hold your sad head down,,,,,,,JTD

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What’s Your Reason For Becoming Sober And Clean…

Every stitch has a hitch. Every magician has a trick. Every paw has a claw. And every eye saw what it saw. But what of your meanings for the reasoning. What reason is it for you to get Sober and Clean. If you say you met somebody good then look left. If you say cause you tired of everyone being on your case look right. If you say cause the people in the church and the shelter require it look down. Now Jump Thru Darkness and understand your reasoning is all about others and not about yourself. You must do it for you and only you my friend. Then you can look straight as your new life of sobriety begins…JTD

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Self Made Wounds

We will fight against anything or anyone that hurts us. We march and pray against any and everything that threatens to harm our way. Trouble has trouble if it doesn’t see things in a certain way. Yet with all these things we try to make juice from rotten fruit. We then still will look into the mirror of hurt and can’t help ourselves. So Jump Thru Darkness and when you look into the mirror remember it’s about saving you. Saving you from your addictions and the self made wounds…..JTD

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Feel Your Way Down The Road Of Addictions

Sobriety isn’t easy to find, obtain, or even maintain. Sobriety takes work each and everyday. Much like a relationship that always need watering. Without the right amount of water you could end up with weeds instead of roses. No one should ever take sobriety for a fun ride in the park between brief moments of soberness. Each time you feel less higher or drunk than before and always needing more. So Jump Thru Darkness and stop trying to speed up sobriety road. Cause you may find your hopefulness of becoming sober and clean just a last ditch dream. So don’t just read this hear this and listen. Feel your way down the road of addictions….

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Church Shouldn’t Cause You To Relapse….

Sometimes it’s hard to know what the next move is when you decide to change your life. Like if you love church every church is your church but picking just one can be hard when you are a people person. When working your sobriety picking a church can be hard and even sometimes send you into depression. If you leave a church for another are you wrong. I’ve decided to do an online bible program because my addictive mind seems to give me emotions as an recovering alcoholic that I can’t handle. I guess that’s that same issue many of you have with Sundays. But I Jump Thru Darkness and make sure my sobriety is in line with what I need to do in life. Cause not being able to make a decision about what church to go to shouldn’t have you to the point of relapsing. So continue to read your bible. Listen to preaching online and remember that if you relapse church will be the last thing on your mind. So hang on to your sobriety always no matter what and you’ll be fine……JTD

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Sad Most Of The Time…

Yeah truth is we are sad most of the time. That’s why we drink to hide the sadness. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we get high so we can’t think about the sadness. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we live in our addictions outside the mental unity of society. Yeah we are sad most of the time. That’s why we say I don’t care about them cause they don’t care about me. Yeah we are sad most of the time. But as we Jump Thru Darkness we learn happiness within our sobriety…..JTD

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Caring For Yourself Should Be Easy Right…

Living life to the fullest is an easy statement to say. You could be rich or poor and never really get to live life to the fullest. Drinking and drugging gives you that quick feeling of life fulfilling emotions. So when you hit rock bottom you should want to get up right. When your house is dark you should want to turn on a light. When life puts you down you should want to stand up for yourself right. When you so bad on drugs you can’t remember what thinking feels like. Or you drink so much you can’t remember what water tastes like. Makes you wonder and it should make you want to Jump Thru Darkness and explain to yourself your life. Because if fulfillment in life is an emotion from drinking or getting high. Then caring for yourself should be easy right……..JTD

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Sitting In A Dark Room Wiping Your Tears…

The drink didn’t drown away your fears. The smoke from your pipe didn’t dry up your tears. Your sadness and loneliness stand somewhere near. You are so far gone you don’t even warn your kids when you see them grab drugs or a beer. For the best caring you can do in your state of mind isn’t to care at all. Hoping life itself forgets that you are still around. You had friends but you felt the drugs and alcohol treat you better than them. Now you want to Jump Thru Darkness and remember life when you felt blessed. Feelings that you can defeat your addictions and all your sobriety fears. As soon as you can handle sitting in a dark room wiping your tears……JTD

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Are You Giving Yourself Your Best Effort….

Let me guess you rather earn your sobriety by yourself. Don’t need anyone to tell you anything. Sounds like the ways of an addict to me. Oh and I know with my one drink one man world type of mind. But it’s kind of like religion we all have sat around and got into great debates about what the bible says. Only thing is most of the people in that debate never really read the bible cover to cover. Most learned what they know from what they heard someone else say. Do you want your sobriety to be that way? How much time and effort would you give for your sobriety. Jump Thru Darkness and make a list. A list of how much money you would spend. A list of how much time you would give. Then make a list of all the things you did to get what you wanted in your addictions. Now look at both lists and ask yourself this question. Are you giving yourself your best effort……..JTD

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Your Puddle Became A Pond

At 13 years old it felt cool to drink wine coolers. Just a puddle to real alcoholics. At 14 that first quart of beer had us feeling like Christmas was near even if it was march. Still a puddle but its getting wide. At 16 and 17 you were teaching others in the school bathroom what to drink to be cool. Funny that puddle looks way to full. After 18 you made your first child but was to drunk to remember how. Then you notice that puddle isn’t a puddle anymore. Nowadays you drink so much that your puddle is a pond. Try Jumping Thru Darkness for your sobriety so you can finally win one….JTD

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SAME FIGHT

No matter what your addictions maybe you fighting the same fight. When I am Jumping Thru Darkness and I’m talking to someone. I often never see color or race. I often never see criminal or ex-con. I often never see educated vs uneducated. What I often see is a man or woman in the fight standing beside me. You are not in the fight against addictions alone. No matter how many times addictions knock us down. We some how will always find a way to get off the ground. Our fight against addiction sometimes seem merciless but we Jump Thru Darkness nevertheless. So don’t keep negative things in your eyes. Because nothing not even color or race, education, or crimes makes you immune to addictions might. So as you work your sobriety remember we all are fighting the same fight….JTD

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Fighting Yourself And Still Lose…

You be determined to stay sober and clean. You made a plan no more clubbing on the weekend. You drive fast past the liquor store looking the other way. When your friends ask you do you want to smoke you say you already high. Working your steps to your sobriety program leads you into a fight with yourself. You can’t remember what happened the night before. All you can think about is how you ended up passed out on the floor. Empty beer bottles surround the door. Your favorite song is playing on repeat pissing off the people next door. Mud on your shoes says you went walking. Wondering if you forgot to Jump Thru Darkness. Then you get a call from a friend and the friend says man how was your binge. Your friend then said you had a fight with yourself over your addictions. It seems your sobriety was the cost. Because you had a fight with yourself and lost……JTD

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Tell Your Addiction Bye

From the moment a bird is born it wants to fly. When it finally is ready it takes to the sky. The bird spends its whole life testing the winds of might. Reaching with wings to every part of why. Until one day the wind doesn’t blew and the bird falls from the sky. As the bird falls it has no regrets it simply whispers to the sky and says bye. Jump Thru Darkness and even as you fall from your addictions, let these words be the ones you remember. Like that bird that lived life high. As you get sober and clean don’t forget to tell your addictions bye……JTD

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What Do You Turn Too….

What do you turn to when you have nothing to eat. What do you turn to when you barely have shoes on your feet. They tell you to go to church but its only open once a week. What happens the other six days when you have nowhere to sleep. Yeah I wanna know who helps you so they can help me too. Oh you have some liquor and weed you would like to share with me. But I was really trying to Jump Thru Darkness and find out what I should do. So while you keep getting drunk and high, I’m be trying to win my sobriety and fight for my life. If I only knew what or who to turn too. Maybe I’ll get high and have a drink with you. Then maybe just maybe I’ll figure out what I should do. Close the door I don’t feel like trying anymore do you…JTD