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NEXT DAY HANGOVER MEMORIES…..

Sitting on the floor in a dark room looking at the sun in the window. Worried if that’s someone’s body laying past the door. Your head starts to hurt and the hangover memories begin. You remember how it did begin. You remember dancing in the club. You don’t remember who you was kissing but when they said come on you held on. You remember running from a dog and kissing more while falling down. You remember your friends saying something but those kisses made the words pointless. You should really start Jumping Thru Darkness as soon as you remember how you ended up on the floor of an abandoned apartment. Now this could be a real scary moment if you are a woman. But the darkness doesn’t care about gender. So even a man would be scared looking towards that window….JTD

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Strength

As it seems your addictions make you feel like you strong and can handle anything. But truth is nothing can be more wrong. While playing in your addictions you tend to worry less. You think less about things that when sober you can’t get out of your head. Giving you that feeling that you are stronger than those mind worries or fears. That seems to always be there in your life when sober. When you Jump Thru Darkness you will finally feel your strength. The strength of being able to be okay with your flaws. The strength to forgive yourself for barely ever being right and always being wrong. The strength to Jump Thru Darkness and get sober and clean and move forward….JTD

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Empty sober ( A Fading Dark Addiction)…..

If you are waiting to feel sober. Buy a never-ending clock because that feeling often never comes. Today you don’t feel sober. Yesterday you didn’t feel sober. But Jump Thru Darkness and hope for that same empty feeling tomorrow. Just like an empty glass that use to have addictions in it. Empty is that feeling that lets you know you are sober and clean. So when you start feeling that way be proud you are finally becoming empty of addictions. Not every cloud stays dark during a storm. Some get brighter with time. So can your battle for sobriety. During your battle for sobriety the wind may blow strong and your faith may become weakened. But Jump Thru Darkness and know that the light of your sobriety is Fading the darkness of your addictions….JTD

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Don’t

One word can hold you together when nothing else seems to work. The word DON’T can be the only thing your ears need to hear. Don’t smoke that. Don’t drink that. If you out of money DON’T steal that six pack. Don’t lie to your lover just to buy another. Some things will make you want to reset time cause addictions are in your mind. Somethings will bring feelings of doing a crime to your mind. But Jump Thru Darkness and hear the word DON’T. Cause no matter how you feel and what you want to do. If you DON’T you WON’T……JTD

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Visions Of Feelings (Addictions)

Addictions are often visions of feelings you wish you really had. While inside your hours of addictions you can smile and laugh. You have the courage to dance and sing. You find it easy to talk to that person you have been dreaming about. Those fears that make you hug your own self seem to disappear. Simply visions of you inside a life of no worries at all. Well besides running out of money or being drunk and high before the party. Then you end up missing it all. Passed out on a floor or couch while everyone else shows your passed out dreams what a happy feeling is all about. Jump Thru Darkness and feel the visions of a happy sober life. Try to smile sober like you do when addictions have you mind. Elbow your fears and talk to him or her anyway. Bring that drug or alcoholic happiness into focus in your sober atmosphere. Then you will see that your addictions were just visions of feelings that wasn’t there…JTD

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The Word Reward Can Make You An Addict……

You will hear many stories about how someone became an alcoholic or a addict. The stories all have the same theme for most.Things like a bad childhood and abuse are at the top of the list for addiction excuses. What is not told is those that live right. Those that finish school and go to college. Those that finish college and get the good job. Those that feel they deserve a reward. So they reward themselves with a night out with some drinks or something to smoke. Depends on how good they make their lives. The rewards come more and more over and over again. Soon they find themselves an addict of rewards. The reward addiction then will have their eyes, breath, head and clothes all looking like they had a bad childhood and was abused. So Jump Thru Darkness and understand no status in society is protected from addictions. So when you treat yourself be smart and think of sobriety when you say the word reward…..

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Don’t Just Get Sober…Live Sober

Listen it’s easy to put a drink down. It’s easy to stop smoking drugs or doing pills etc…But one of the hardest things to do when living in your sobriety is to stop living, thinking, and doing things like a addict. Everything you want in life you still go about things in an addicts way. You want a certain apartment or house so you lie and do games to get the person kicked out or locked up. Then when things don’t fall in your favor you wonder why. Because you tried to achieve something using an addicts mind. For many it even plays out in relationships. Instead of loving from the heart many love from the wallet or purse. It’s all about what they can get and forget about what they should give. Every word said by those mouths are all said to give them a high from the situation. That’s still being a addict without the drugs or drinks. Jump Thru Darkness and start living sober. Stop looking at everyone as a mark that you can out smart. Being a schemer is also traits of an addict. Maybe that’s why things in those people’s lives never work out. Understand when you become sober and clean it’s a clean slate. That means the way you use to get what you wanted as an addict can’t be your go to attitude when you working your sobriety. Because in the end the only one that really falls is you to your own addiction schemes in society….JTD

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Stand Strong Alone (Sobriety)

So you make the plan to become sober and clean. You plan to go to a meeting and talk about all the things you did while an addict. Many get lost at that part because some addicts can’t and won’t tell all their secrets out loud to any crowd. Then they tell you to mend relationships with those who sometimes don’t deserve your friendship drunk, high, or sober and clean. Look at it this way while in your addiction it was often you against the world and you was happy alone in your addictions. So don’t start your sobriety feeling dependent upon others acceptance. It may have you kneeling to the devil that wants nothing but evil for your life. There is no way to tell if the person you are making a mends with truly wishes the best for you. So Jump Thru Darkness and the same way you stood strong and alone in your addictions. Stand strong and alone in your sobriety. Like a child that pulls themselves up to walk, you will smile like that child when you pull yourself up from your addictions. You were unstoppable while an addict, now become undeniable with your sobriety……JTD

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SOBRIETY (WHY DO WE DO IT)…..

To hold on to our sobriety we must always understand why we have to do it. It’s the one thing that we really think about everyday. The one emotion that even overpowers love. No person on earth can say the right words to stop us when we are in our addictions. Our addictions are the strongest emotions known to mankind. When we are drinking and drugging our feelings to fight against anyone or thing that tries to stop us becomes stronger than superman’s cape. So think about how strong the emotions are to get you to fall off the wagon. The struggle to stay sober and clean each and everyday can and often times is the hardest battle of our lives. Yet we all must Jump Thru Darkness and understand why we do it. We do it for all things left. We do it for all things right. We do it for all things up above. We do it for all things down below. We do it for ourselves cause we truly know we have further to go…….JTD

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For those who need to feel (Addictions) An unjust way to heal….

Empty is the heart of most addicts. Troubled is the mind of most addicts. Worn almost out is the body of most addicts. Abandoned is the love and relationships of most addicts. The need to feel happy is the goal of all addicts. Living normal only ends in arguments and sadness. But while in their addictions is the only time you really see them laughing. When sober it seems as if their lives are filled with their own jar of hopelessness. Sober to long and they will surely tell life they quit. A good job or marriage is not mentally blessed cause in an addicts mind drinking and smoking is the only thing next. Trying hard to be able to feel but being sober makes them face a life they don’t wanna live. For years all they ever had of happiness is from addictions they can control themselves. Even if the way to happiness they choice is unjust. They still do it because for them its the only happiness left. Family treats them like smallpox, kids treat them like dead folks, and preachers talk from a distance like addictions are contagious to the Godly throne. But an addicts answer is drinking and drugging to it all. To Jump Thru Darkness we most find away to happiness without drinking and drugging. Maybe we need to start from the being. Like get a coloring book and color a car and house into your addictive life. Color in friends and family into your addictive life. Then color in some happiness and when you finish coloring look at those pictures and how your soul wants the best for you. Then color your life in sobriety and Jump Thru Darkness and let your new colors on life lead your way…..JTD

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Addictions are not just for the lost…..

Seems even being an addict can make people treat you badly. Many associate being a addict with being lost in life. Some would say addicts are people who lost their way. Any job or career you can name has an addict working there. Some go unnoticed until the addiction devours them completely. Pride is sometime the evil that stops them from seeking help. Yes I am talking about all them but you know that also includes us. Us that are smart and educated. Us that are hard working and dedicated. Us that celebrate being better than others with smoking and drinking. Yes us who now needs to Jump Thru Darkness and understand just cause we the front line. Just cause we help teach young minds. Just cause we make the laws. Just cause we preach to them all. Just cause we addicts that didn’t fall. Does not mean addictions are just for the lost…..JTD

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FEELING IS HEALING

Jumping thru darkness is poetry, short stories, and spoken words about addictions to make you feel. An addict often times hide their feelings with their addictions. Many will abuse an addict by telling them all the things they do wrong. Many meet addicts with a stern look when they open the door. I heard many say things like that’s what they get for playing with GOD. Becoming more lethal to the addict than the drugs. Let’s not beat those whom have already decided to be beaten. Let’s help them instead to start their emotions to work and stop sleeping. Getting the feelings back inside their hearts with words that spark. Then showing them that in life they can live a better part. My focus is to whisper not to yell,to teach but not to preach, until their true feelings I reach. Then like the popping of hot grease on their arms i jump start their feelings again inside their hearts. Hoping to lead them away from addictions. While teaching them to JUMP THRU DARKNESS and understand that feeling is healing. All while teaching them that saving them is the mission…..JTD

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Attacked By A Twelve Pack

I like to think I can stand up to anything I must face. I’ve won more fights than I have lost. But that day I was facing the twelve. The twelve that can make you feel helpless with your face in the toilet. The twelve that can leave you with a dui if you driving. The twelve that will have you outside your lover window crying. The twelve that doesn’t care if you find a bathroom when you need to go. The twelve that says you don’t need a bathroom just go in your clothes. I decided to Jump Thru Darkness and fight back against the twelve. But all that lead to is me becoming drunk as hell. When becoming sober and clean don’t forget about the attack of the twelve pack. Because if you don’t take your sobriety serious you might find yourself back in a fight with the pack….JTD

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The Darkness Of An Addicts Soul….

Darkness is a scare most people are afraid of all their lives. Yet two people walk down a dark valley and one is in fear and the other is excited. That’s because one has great eye sight and the other is blind. The blind person is excited about the trip, smelling and listening to all the new things. The person with the good sight is scared to close their eyes on the other hand. With every step one is smiling with excitement while the other is scared to tears while walking side by side. In this example the blind person is you while under your addictions. The scared person is your soul knowing that your addictions are bad for you. Now either you smarten up and make it past that dark valley or you keep walking to what most would call a sad end. So even if you can only open your blind eyes a little, let that be the very moment you start to Jump Thru Darkness and let your sobriety stop being scared and let your sober journey begin…….JTD

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Sobriety Lights…….

Sobriety is like putting up Christmas lights. When you ride around your neighborhood you may only see a few others with lights up. Many look at how good things look but won’t put up lights themselves. Much like sobriety not everyone has the skills, means or effort to put up their own lights without help. Lights of forgiveness for their addictions. Lights of clean living that shines once you become sober. Lights of understanding a daily battle. Seeing others put up a good effort to enjoy life should be motivation for most. Seeing others get clean should make you feel and want to get clean. Start standing out in your sobriety so other addicts can be guided by your sobriety lights. Helping others to Jump Thru Darkness and achieve Sobriety….

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Darkest Part Of The Sobriety Valley…

Tears of unsettled hearts. Dreams of an unseen vengeful GOD. As the devil plays all the parts. All the voices are venom to the crowd. Allowing the darkness to consume every heart. Dancing with fate to find answers. Just to be sent on a mission by the devil. But if you fall for the darkness, you will fall until the end. Like pedals falling off a rose wishing it would rain. Your imagination has become the devils new creation. But don’t let your own evil make you feel that you can’t reach sobriety. Cause sobriety is light in the darkness. Pain and sadness will cover your eyes. The darkness loves to blind. A fight with yourself that takes you from behind. Never making sense of what’s in your mind. Like jumping into a empty car with no gas. But a destination without sobriety has no end. So Jump Thru Darkness and find peace and direction through sobriety my friend….JTD

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Protect Your Sobriety Always

Okay picture the night scene in your head. It’s cold and you are using alcohol to stay warm. You started using alcohol to stay warm during college or even sooner when you got kicked out of the house and had nowhere to go. You are in a room any room will do because it all ends the same way. No matter if it’s a dorm room, friend’s room or your childhood bedroom. You have a bottle in your hand and drinking it like a engine drinks gas. Funny cause you drink like a older model car that smokes. Your favorite song is playing on the radio. The name of this song is Drunk forever by this dude named Kevin. The door opens and someone starts talking. You quickly point a finger and the bottle and say leave me alone. At that moment you start doing the two step around the room. You hear the person is saying something but as you dance all you hear is nothing. You say to them didn’t I tell you to leave me alone. They walk out and slam the door. For a brief moment you start to Jump Thru Darkness and wanna reach for the door behind them. But your bottle calls you to finish what you started there. So you turn the music louder and dance some more alone in the room. At that point do you really care about anything? Is it really alcohol to blame even when you are not harming anything. It ain’t easy living through drunk days. So when you get sober protect your sobriety always…..JTD

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Don’t Just Hear,Finally Listen

The fight for sobriety can be a tough one. Sitting in meetings thinking about all the other things you could be doing besides a meeting. Hating every story others tell. Looking at some of them like you shouldn’t be in a meeting you should be in jail. Feeling bad for yourself but Jesus got us all beat. He was tortured and nailed to a cross, while we cry and moan over an alcoholic defeat. While in our addictions we are told we are loved, but like rain bouncing off a coat we brush all emotions off. While Jumping Thru Darkness don’t just hear the words we love you from your family, husband ,wife or children. Nope try to fight a good fight and when they tell you they love you finally listen……JTD