Fighting Yourself And Still Lose…

You be determined to stay sober and clean. You made a plan no more clubbing on the weekend. You drive fast past the liquor store looking the other way. When your friends ask you do you want to smoke you say you already high. Working your steps to your sobriety program leads you into a fight with yourself. You can’t remember what happened the night before. All you can think about is how you ended up passed out on the floor. Empty beer bottles surround the door. Your favorite song is playing on repeat pissing off the people next door. Mud on your shoes says you went walking. Wondering if you forgot to Jump Thru Darkness. Then you get a call from a friend and the friend says man how was your binge. Your friend then said you had a fight with yourself over your addictions. It seems your sobriety was the cost. Because you had a fight with yourself and lost……JTD