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HOLDING ON PT. 2 THE MENTAL HANGOVER

WHILE BECOMING SOBER YOU WILL NOTICE YOU HAVE SOME PROBLEMS. NOTHING SHOWS YOU THE WEAKNESS INSIDE YOU LIKE A HANGOVER. THE THINGS YOU FEEL SORRY FOR IS YOUR FIRST CLUE. EVERYTHING YOU THINK ABOUT THE NEXT DAY IS ALL ABOUT WHAT YOU DID AND YOU. THE EMOTIONS THAT YOU HAVE OFTEN TIMES MAKE YOU FEEL SAD AND BLUE. BECAUSE IN YOUR MIND IF YOU WASN’T DRUNK THINGS LIKE THAT YOU WON’T DO. HOPEFULLY YOU MAY BE ABLE TO JUMP THROUGH DARKNESS AND FIX SOME THINGS EASY. BUT IF YOU CAN’T THINKING TO MUCH ABOUT THINGS YOU CAN’T CHANGE WILL DRIVE YOU CRAZY. SO AS YOU SIT THERE WITH YOUR HANGOVER. HOPE THAT YOUR DRUNKEN NIGHT ENDED WITH NO PROBLEMS. BECAUSE MANY DRUNKEN NIGHTS END IN A KRIMINAL SAGA……JTD

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HOLD ON PT.3 A DRUNKS SAGA

ALONG ALCOHOLIC ROAD YOU GET DRUNK AND FIGHT MENTAL BATTLES. NO BATTLE IS GREATER THAN THE KRIMINAL SAGA YOU CREATE WITH A LIQUOR BOTTLE. WHEN YOU SOBER THEY SAY YOU ACT LIKE YOU WAS BAPTIZED IN A POOL OF NICE. WHEN YOU DRINKING YOU ACT LIKE YOU WANNA TAKE EVERYBODY LIFE. A BROKEN BOTTLE IS A WEAPON EVEN WHEN YOU DRINKING ALONE. SITTING IN YOUR OWN KITCHEN WITH A KNIFE IN YOUR HAND GETTING MAD AT THE WALLS. YOU MUST JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND UNDERSTAND IT’S NOT JUST ABOUT STOP DRINKING TO SOLVE YOUR PROBLEMS. TO WIN YOU MUST UNDERSTAND THE COMPLETE RIDE ALONG ALCOHOLIC ROAD AND THE MENTAL BATTLES WITHIN IT ALL. ONCE YOU DO LIKE A BROKEN PICTURE GOING BACKWARDS IN TIME. YOUR LIFE WILL BE FIXED ONE PIECE AT A TIME. SO HOLD ON ALONG ALCOHOLIC ROAD……JTD 

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How To Stop Shi_ In Your Life

BELIEVE IT OR NOT IT STARTS IN THE BATHROOM. WHILE SITTING THERE DOING THE NUMBER TWO. YOU REACH OUT AND GRAB THE TOILET PAPER TO WIPE. AFTER YOU WIPE YOU PULL UP YOUR CLOTHES. OKAY STOP RIGHT THERE AND THINK ARE YOUR HANDS CLEAN AT THAT MOMENT. NO THEY ARE NOT. NOW YOUR CLOTHES HAVE _HIT ON THEM. OR THEY HAVE THE SMELL ON THEM. OKAY YOU WASH YOUR HANDS AND GO OFF IN LIFE. NEXT THING YOU KNOW HERE COMES SOMEONE OR SOMETHING FULL OF _HIT ENTERING YOUR LIFE. BECAUSE _HIT ATTRACTS _HIT. SO LEARN TO JUMP THROUGH DARKNESS AND LEAN OVER WHILE SITTING ON THE TOILET AND WASH YOUR HANDS BEFORE YOU PULL UP YOUR PANTS.THIS WILL SURELY STOP ALL THE BULL BEFORE ALL THE CRAP BEGINS….JTD

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Never Give Up On Life

YOU MIGHT HAVE CANCER. YOU MIGHT HAVE AIDS. YOU MIGHT HAVE ALZHEIMER’S. YOU MIGHT BE FIGHTING ADDICTIONS. NOBODY MIGHT SEEM TO LOVE OR LIKE YOU. SOMETIMES YOUR ONLY FRIEND IS A BIRD IN THE TREE. EVEN THAT BIRD WILL EVENTUALLY FLY AWAY. YOUR TEARS SEEM MEANINGLESS WHEN AS SOON AS YOU STOP CRYING ABOUT ONE THING. YOU START CRYING ABOUT ANOTHER. ASKING SOMEONE TO LIFT THE ROCK THAT YOU ARE UNDER TO RELIEVE THE PRESSURE. MAKING YOU WANT TO GIVE UP THE FIGHT FOREVER. BUT JUMP THROUGH DARKNESS DOWN DEEP INSIDE. NEVER GIVE UP ON LIFE. SO LIFE WON’T GIVE UP ON YOU. IF THE SKY IN YOUR LIFE ISN’T BLUE THEN PUT ON SOMETHING BLUE AND MAKE LIFE DO WHAT IT DO. IF THE SUN DON’T SEEM TO SHINE. LIGHT A MATCH, TURN ON A LIGHT, OR JUST OPEN YOUR EYES WIDE AND SAY I SEE LIFE JUST FINE. TREES NEVER CRY WHEN THEY LOSE LEAVES SO DON’T YOU GIVE UP ON YOUR LIFE OR YOUR DREAMS….JTD

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One Tear

AS SHE LIT HER DRUGS THE CHILD LAUGHED IN BED BESIDE HER. SOON THE DRUGS TOOK OVER AND OUT THE DOOR SHE WENT. THE CHILD LAID THERE ON THE BED WATCHING NICK JR. HOURS PASSED AND THE CHILD LOOKED AND LOOKED FOR HER AROUND THE ROOM. SHE HAD LOCKED THE DOOR SO HER PARENTS COULDN’T GET IN. THE PARENTS DOWNSTAIRS BEDROOM WAS TO FAR TO HEAR THE CHILD CRY. THE CHILD BECAME HUNGRY AND SAW SOMETHING THAT LOOKED LIKE CANDY, THAT WAS LEFT ON THE TABLE BY THE CHILD’S MOTHER. THE CHILD LAID BACK DOWN WITH WHAT WAS SUPPOSE TO BE CANDY AND STARTED BACK WATCHING NICK JR. THAT CHILD LAUGHED AND ATE. THE CHILD CRIED A LITTLE WHILE LOOKING AROUND FOR THE MOTHER TO RETURN. BUT THE CARTOONS KEPT THE BABY LAUGHING UNTIL THE CHILD ATE ONE TO MANY OF THE HEROIN PILLS. THE CHILD WAS FOUND DEAD WITH A SMILE AND ONE TEAR…….JTD

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Your Journey

When you start your path to sobriety it can be tricky. New problems will show up in your life. These problems are to test your sobriety. If you pay attention it will be a version of an old problem. It will test you to see if you rely on the drugs and drinking again like you use too. You know the arguments that lead to you walking out the house, jumping in the car. Then returning home late hours of the night talking about baby I’m hungry. While they sitting there wondering if whooping an addict with a belt is against the law. Sobriety isn’t a new shirt you wear every two to three days. It won’t turn off like a light bulb. It will lead you to new grounds and new paths if you let it. Now look in the mirror in your bathroom. First look at yourself with the light on for about ten minutes and really think about your life. Then turn the light off for ten minutes and look into the mirror and think. Now before you get mad at me for having you stand in the bathroom in the dark. Ask yourself which version of you made you feel better. If you can smile at the light just think of it as your sobriety. Then continue your journey through darkness……JTD