Tag: sobriety

If you get the urge to order out make sure its comes with some fresh sobriety. If you from the hood or ghetto you probably got drunk and high so you didn’t have to think about how many people be smiling in your face as friends. All while hoping a bullet or a cop brings your story to an unhappy end. If you a business owner, doctor, or lawyer and all others that worked hard to play hard. You probably feel you don’t have an addiction because of your job. Well thinking like that is something but can we really call thinking like that smart. No matter if you running from the law. At least you can try to better yourself from within even if you dirty eternally. Do that by ordering your sobriety. So you not a criminal and in the best seats a person can have as a job. Just stand up and depends on how tall you are just notice when it comes to addictions the fall isn’t that far from where you standing for you to hit the ground. So Jump Thru Darkness and remember to order some sobriety with your head held high and a smile…JTD

From having your first drink from a beer you stole out the refrigerator at 13 years old. To running a fortune 500 company and drinking DIVA VODKA that costs 1 Million Dollars a bottle to help you enjoy life. What is truly the happiness of it all. I mean is your happiness making yourself feel intoxicated and doing things you wouldn’t normally do. Your happiness is saying things you would never say sober. I mean maybe your happiness involves a two day hangover that’s so bad it makes you hate water. Jump Thru Darkness and understand that all that alcoholic happiness is you acting and feelings like someone else and not yourself. So if you act different and talk different is that happiness real? Maybe that’s what a hangover is about all that fake alcoholic happiness leaving your body. Leaving you with your own feelings of pain and sickness. Try to laugh and dance Sober. Try a date with your lover Sober. When you feel you have earned a reward let your reward be a clean and sober day. No more living a fake happiness that often leaves your life in a mess. Finally being soberly happy while Jumping Thru Darkness……JTD

You say you have a hangover. You say you have a stomach ache. You say you have a toothache. You say it’s hard to see and think straight. But you sober and clean so when you mix all that up tell me the name of that cake. Seems that’s a dizzy cake with an after buzz flavor. It hits many days after becoming sober and others months and years before they notice; The after effect of the addictions on their mind, body and soul. The dizziness can be short or it can be long but for most things seem clear no headaches at all. But you can’t stop your hand from shaking. It’s even hard to remember Monday on Thursday because you get dizzy on Wednesdays. You follow all the rules of sobriety but still can’t understand the mental mess of dizziness that makes you feel a little off in life. You use to get everything right now dizziness seems to be the lead in your newly found sober ride. Jump Thru Darkness and hold your ground. Stay in place and stick it out for your sobriety, so one day when the dizziness stops your feet will be standing in the right spot…..JTD

I HAD JUST GOTTEN ENGAGED AND WENT OUT WITH THE BOYS TO PARTY. I STARTED DRINKING AT ONE IN THE AFTERNOON. BY EIGHT THE FELLOWS CALLED AND SAID MEET THEM AT THE CLUB. ALL I KNOW IS I ARRIVED AT A CLUB AT 12 THAT NIGHT THREE CITIES OVER. SEE I HAD TO CATCH THE BUS TO THE CLUB AND MY DRUNK MIND SAID GREYHOUND WAS FASTER. I CAN REMEMBER THIS CHICK WALKING UP AND HANDING ME A DRINK. SHE GAVE ME AS MANY DRINKS AS I COULD HOLD AND TOOK ME HOME. THE NEXT DAY SHE PUT IT ON ME AGAIN AND I DIDN’T WANT TO LEAVE. SO SHE GOT ME A JOB WORKING WITH HER. I FELT I WAS JUMPING THRU DARKNESS AND STARTING OVER. YEAH I FELT THAT WAY UNTIL ONE DAY I LOOKED OUT THE WINDOW AND MY FIANCEE WAS STANDING IN THE FRONT YARD. I WALKED OUT AND SHE SAID EXPLAIN YOURSELF. ALL I COULD SAY IS BABY I HAD ONE TWO MANY……JTD

They say there are programs for kids to get off drugs and go back to school. They say there are programs that help babies with babies learn new moves. If stopping the youth and saving their life is the plan, why kick them out of school in the first place my friends. Most low income kids only think of the one thing they can do without a job or being educated. That’s having a boyfriend or getting a girl pregnant. A bit of what most adults have to make those youth feel they have purpose in these empty lands. To be nothing on educated paper or on a job site but to be called fathers or mothers makes their lives feel right. Disappointment is beaten down by blunts and cheaply made but expensive drinks. Then if you ask them who they are they will never say addict cause that’s not how they think. Lets Jump Thru Darkness and understand everyone plays apart in the world of addicts. Open your eyes and see that choice for some is the only choice they have to feel they have purpose. The world doesn’t train the youth for the future anymore because most of the trainers themselves are waiting on the big score. So for them all drunks, addicts,etc..forget about programs and opening old sores. Lets Jump Thru Darkness and create new doors…..JTD

AS YOU JUMP THRU DARKNESS ON ALCOHOLIC ROAD TO STAY SOBER. YOU MAY NOT NOTICE SOME ISSUES WITH MEDICATIONS THAT YOU MAY TAKE. TO MOST PEOPLE MEDICATION IS A BLESSING. TO AN ALCOHOLIC MEDICATION CAN JUST BE ANOTHER FORM OF ALCOHOL THAT ENTERS YOUR SYSTEM. THE MEDICATION OF ANY KIND IS A DRUG. IF YOU ARE A ADDICT IT DOESN’T HELP YOU STAY CLEAN. IF YOU ARE AN ALCOHOLIC DON’T BE FOOLED BECAUSE YOU DON’T FEEL DRUNK. THE MEDICATION IS AFFECTING YOU JUST AS MUCH AS ALCOHOL AFFECTED YOU. IN ORDER TO JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND TRULY STAY SOBER. YOU MIGHT HAVE TO WATCH WHAT YOU TAKE WHEN IT COMES TO MEDICATION. ALSO TELL YOUR DOCTOR YOU ARE WORKING YOUR SOBRIETY PROGRAM(JTD). SO THEY CAN GIVE YOU MEDICATION THAT KEEPS YOUR BODY FREE FROM DRUGS. OFTEN TIMES PEOPLE REPLACE ALCOHOL WITH MEDICATION GETTING THEM HOOKED ON PILLS. SO FIND NATURAL WAYS TO EASE PAIN IF YOU CAN. IF YOU GET A COLD GET YOU SOME APPLE CIDER VINEGER AND SOME LEMON JUICE WITH A LITTLE HONEY MIX IT UP AND DRINK IT FOR COLD MEDICATION. IF YOU MIX IT RIGHT IT SHOULD TASTE LIKE THERAFLU. LETS FACE IT MEDICATION ISN’T CHEAP SO THIS WAY YOU CAN EVEN GET ALL THESE THINGS WITH FOOD STAMPS AND STAY HEALTHY. I USE THIS MYSELF AND IT WORKS. ALSO START TAKING FISH OIL OR FLAX SEED OIL IN THE FALL IT HELPS TO FIGHT AGAINST THE FLU AND INFLAMMATION DOING THE WINTER MONTHS. WHICH ALLOWS YOU TO KEEP YOUR BODY FREE FROM DRUGS AND ALCOHOL ALL WHILE JUMPING THRU DARKNESS ON ALCOHOLIC ROAD…….JTD

YOU MAY FEEL HOPELESS BECAUSE OF YOUR CRIMINAL RECORD. IT MAKES YOU FEEL YOU HAVE NO CHANCE IN LIFE BUT THE WAYS OF THE STREETS. EVEN IF YOU SMART AND EDUCATED YOU KNOW ONE ARREST AND YOU FLIPPING PENNIES IN THE WISHING WELL LIKE ALL THE OTHERS. IF YOU WAS A TEACHER YOU CAN’T TEACH ANYMORE. IF YOU WAS A BOSS YOU KNOW YOUR DAYS OF HOLDING THE COMPANY DOWN ARE GONE. YOU LOOK AT YOUR KIDS AND HATE THAT ONE DAY YOU WILL LEAVE EARTH. YOU LOVE BEING THEIR PROTECTOR NOW BUT ONE DAY YOU WILL BE GONE. THE HEARTS OF THE UNJUST WISH TO LIVE FOREVER. RATHER ITS FOR THE LOVE OF THEIR CHILDREN OR THE PAIN OF LEAVING FOREVER. WHEN YOU SEE PEOPLE THAT HAVE HAD PROBLEMS REMEMBER NO ONE OR NOTHING IS REALLY BETTER. DIRT MADE YOUR HOMES. DIRT MADE THE WALLS. DIRT BUILT MOUNTAINS AND EVEN THE ROADS. IF EVERYTHING WE USE IN LIFE HAS SOME DIRT IN IT. WHY ARE WE SO QUICK TO CONDEMN PEOPLE WHO ARE WEAK IN IT. LETS JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND GIVE MORE SUPPORT TO THOSE WHOM MAY NEED OR WANT TO RECOVER FROM THEIR ADDICTIONS. JUST LIKE WE STRENGTHEN DIRT TO MAKE A HOME. LETS STRENGTHEN OUR LOVE FOR THE UNJUST ALL AROUND. HELPING THEM TO FIND BETTER WAYS TO LIVE. CAUSE SOME DIRT HELPS US BUILD……..JTD

Dear buddy you were the best bud a drunk could find. You were always there when it was hard times. Like most friends you didn’t abandon me when I was broke. In the middle of the night you was still with me no matter where I wanted to go. When I had to vomit from drinking to much, You was right there with some more. When I did change clothes, well you all know a drunk keeps drinks not a wardrobe. But you had a variety like a rich person’s closet inside a home. When my ex put me out the house. Like a superhero you flew through the window and knocked her new lover out. You even gave me the last swallow before you dashed into the window. But now to get sober and clean means I must Jump Thru Darkness and walk alone further. I truly enjoyed being your friend and hope one day all friends with bottles become sober…..JTD

Just sitting in a chair and I started thinking about all the things that make an addiction what it is in life. From medicine that gets you hooked. To smoking weeds from the ground that everyone wants. When the criminals look less than the leaders when it comes to being crooks. Hoping the bible does get banned for being an open minded book. Adults that say learning about sexual identities is better than learning math under thirteen. So when you see and hear all that it kinda does make you want to drink and smoke. Standing in the middle of a field of confusion feeling like sobriety was the wrong choice chosen. Asking for help just to be laughed at by an drunken angel. With only hope on your side you still must Jump Thru Darkness and stick it out for the long ride. Forget about dreams and pride, don’t rush just stay focused and take your time. And instead of addictions give sobriety one helluva ride…..JTD

Truth is you can do any and every program to get sober and clean that you can find. Problem with that is none of them will work if getting sober and clean is not deep inside your mind. The number one program you should learn is about loving and saving yourself. A hard fact is no one really cares about your situation as long as your situation does not cause problems in their situations. As far as many others are concerned you can be as drunk and as high as you want as long as you are leaving them alone. But that is okay because most addicts get drunk and high alone. More for me is the best words of an addict. The drinks and drugs become friends and family. But Jump Thru Darkness and decide to save yourself. Show the demons of addictions that you have some fight left. And most of all fight against your addictions for yourself…..JTD

Listen most of us barely can put the light bill in our own names. We will never be able to pull a new car off the car lot in the same year we are living in. We all drive cars five to twenty years older than the latest model. Many would be homeless if they didn’t know how to fake a pay stub to get a place to stay. Or making it to college and clever minds work together with clothes hangers to rig the washer and dryer so everybody could stay clean. Jump Thru Darkness and lift your head up. Everybody has to learn to survive someway in life. Your addiction is no different than anybody else’s problems in life. We all have to build our own boats like Noah. Truth is many don’t know life that doesn’t have a problem in it. If you not worrying about anything you must be dead. I would say sleep but some of y’all know sleep don’t stop the worrying of how to pay the bills. The worrying of how to protect your kids. The worrying of finding job interviews for your lover on the couch. All while hiding your own failing health. If nothing else in your addictions Jump Thru Darkness when you have nothing left and hold your head up. Not for anyone else but for yourself………JTD

Okay lets talk about a feeling you might have while battling for your sobriety. The feeling of being a small box inside a Rubik’s Cube that’s inside a larger Rubik’s Cube with no sense or direction of where you belong. Finding your sobriety can feel like that everyday. Or standing in the middle of a pitch black room and reaching for the door, just to notice it seems the dark room has no walls or floors.You reach out with both hands reaching for a doorknob that’s seems to move every time you get closer. Trapped inside an endless darkness of puzzled moves that repeat your addictions over and over. Jump Thru Darkness and stop trying to solve the Rubik’s Cube puzzle of addictions with repeating bad moves. Stand in place and let sobriety move for you. No more reaching into the darkness just to grab hold of more addiction hopelessness. Stand still and find sobriety as you Jump Thru Darkness and let your sobriety solve the puzzle of being a small box inside a Rubik’s Cube……JTD

Sitting on the floor in a dark room looking at the sun in the window. Worried if that’s someone’s body laying past the door. Your head starts to hurt and the hangover memories begin. You remember how it did begin. You remember dancing in the club. You don’t remember who you was kissing but when they said come on you held on. You remember running from a dog and kissing more while falling down. You remember your friends saying something but those kisses made the words pointless. You should really start Jumping Thru Darkness as soon as you remember how you ended up on the floor of an abandoned apartment. Now this could be a real scary moment if you are a woman. But the darkness doesn’t care about gender. So even a man would be scared looking towards that window….JTD

As it seems your addictions make you feel like you strong and can handle anything. But truth is nothing can be more wrong. While playing in your addictions you tend to worry less. You think less about things that when sober you can’t get out of your head. Giving you that feeling that you are stronger than those mind worries or fears. That seems to always be there in your life when sober. When you Jump Thru Darkness you will finally feel your strength. The strength of being able to be okay with your flaws. The strength to forgive yourself for barely ever being right and always being wrong. The strength to Jump Thru Darkness and get sober and clean and move forward….JTD

If you are waiting to feel sober. Buy a never-ending clock because that feeling often never comes. Today you don’t feel sober. Yesterday you didn’t feel sober. But Jump Thru Darkness and hope for that same empty feeling tomorrow. Just like an empty glass that use to have addictions in it. Empty is that feeling that lets you know you are sober and clean. So when you start feeling that way be proud you are finally becoming empty of addictions. Not every cloud stays dark during a storm. Some get brighter with time. So can your battle for sobriety. During your battle for sobriety the wind may blow strong and your faith may become weakened. But Jump Thru Darkness and know that the light of your sobriety is Fading the darkness of your addictions….JTD

One word can hold you together when nothing else seems to work. The word DON’T can be the only thing your ears need to hear. Don’t smoke that. Don’t drink that. If you out of money DON’T steal that six pack. Don’t lie to your lover just to buy another. Some things will make you want to reset time cause addictions are in your mind. Somethings will bring feelings of doing a crime to your mind. But Jump Thru Darkness and hear the word DON’T. Cause no matter how you feel and what you want to do. If you DON’T you WON’T……JTD

Addictions are often visions of feelings you wish you really had. While inside your hours of addictions you can smile and laugh. You have the courage to dance and sing. You find it easy to talk to that person you have been dreaming about. Those fears that make you hug your own self seem to disappear. Simply visions of you inside a life of no worries at all. Well besides running out of money or being drunk and high before the party. Then you end up missing it all. Passed out on a floor or couch while everyone else shows your passed out dreams what a happy feeling is all about. Jump Thru Darkness and feel the visions of a happy sober life. Try to smile sober like you do when addictions have you mind. Elbow your fears and talk to him or her anyway. Bring that drug or alcoholic happiness into focus in your sober atmosphere. Then you will see that your addictions were just visions of feelings that wasn’t there…JTD

You will hear many stories about how someone became an alcoholic or a addict. The stories all have the same theme for most.Things like a bad childhood and abuse are at the top of the list for addiction excuses. What is not told is those that live right. Those that finish school and go to college. Those that finish college and get the good job. Those that feel they deserve a reward. So they reward themselves with a night out with some drinks or something to smoke. Depends on how good they make their lives. The rewards come more and more over and over again. Soon they find themselves an addict of rewards. The reward addiction then will have their eyes, breath, head and clothes all looking like they had a bad childhood and was abused. So Jump Thru Darkness and understand no status in society is protected from addictions. So when you treat yourself be smart and think of sobriety when you say the word reward…..

Listen it’s easy to put a drink down. It’s easy to stop smoking drugs or doing pills etc…But one of the hardest things to do when living in your sobriety is to stop living, thinking, and doing things like a addict. Everything you want in life you still go about things in an addicts way. You want a certain apartment or house so you lie and do games to get the person kicked out or locked up. Then when things don’t fall in your favor you wonder why. Because you tried to achieve something using an addicts mind. For many it even plays out in relationships. Instead of loving from the heart many love from the wallet or purse. It’s all about what they can get and forget about what they should give. Every word said by those mouths are all said to give them a high from the situation. That’s still being a addict without the drugs or drinks. Jump Thru Darkness and start living sober. Stop looking at everyone as a mark that you can out smart. Being a schemer is also traits of an addict. Maybe that’s why things in those people’s lives never work out. Understand when you become sober and clean it’s a clean slate. That means the way you use to get what you wanted as an addict can’t be your go to attitude when you working your sobriety. Because in the end the only one that really falls is you to your own addiction schemes in society….JTD

So you make the plan to become sober and clean. You plan to go to a meeting and talk about all the things you did while an addict. Many get lost at that part because some addicts can’t and won’t tell all their secrets out loud to any crowd. Then they tell you to mend relationships with those who sometimes don’t deserve your friendship drunk, high, or sober and clean. Look at it this way while in your addiction it was often you against the world and you was happy alone in your addictions. So don’t start your sobriety feeling dependent upon others acceptance. It may have you kneeling to the devil that wants nothing but evil for your life. There is no way to tell if the person you are making a mends with truly wishes the best for you. So Jump Thru Darkness and the same way you stood strong and alone in your addictions. Stand strong and alone in your sobriety. Like a child that pulls themselves up to walk, you will smile like that child when you pull yourself up from your addictions. You were unstoppable while an addict, now become undeniable with your sobriety……JTD