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WITH HER WIG COCKED TO THE SIDE

THE TWIST IN HER HIPS IS TO ATTRACT ANYTHING THAT SLANGS. SHE DOESN’T CARE IF THE BIG PACKAGE IS DRUGS OR IN HIS PANTS. SHE WILL GLADLY TAKE IT MY FRIENDS. MARRIED TO A PIECE OF MAN WITH HER FAVORITE WORDS BEING ” I DON’T GIVE A DAMN”. WHEN HER CHILDREN NEEDS HELP SHE SAYS THEM YOUR KIDS. SHE ONLY HAS DAY TO DAY FRIENDS. YOU WOULD SAY IT’S A SHAME IF I TOLD YOU HER AGE. BUT IF YOU RUN UP ON HER. SHE WILL TELL YOU QUICK “I DON’T PLAY GAMES”. SHE HAS AN ADDICTION AND HER ADDICTION IS EVERYTHING. SHE EVEN GETS BORED WHEN THE YOUNG MEN RUN THEIR TRAINS. SHE IS AS HARD AS A WOMAN CAN GET. HER JUMPING THRU DARKNESS HASN’T EVEN STARTED YET. AND WHEN YOU TELL HER SHE DOING BAD. SHE REPLIES WITH “HONEY I’M BLESSED”. MEN WE HAVE ALWAYS PROTECTED OUR WOMEN IN THE PAST. BUT ASK YOURSELF TODAY ARE WE LIVING THE DEFINITION OF THE WORD MAN. WHEN SO MANY OF OUR WOMEN ARE LIVING TO DIE WITH THEIR WIGS COCKED TO THE SIDE….JTD

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THAT'S MY DOG

I can remember walking back and forth to the store when I was young. On my block this house had a fence with the world’s meanest dog inside it. I hated when the dog would bark at me. Something in my head wondered why this dog always barked. First I tried to speak to the dog. Then I tried giving it a bone. He wouldn’t eat it. One night I had been drinking and I had a candy bar in my hand. I had forgotten the dog as I was walking. He ran beside the fence and barked and made me jump higher than I felt. I was mad he made me drop my candy bar. So I picked it up and tossed it over the gate. What do you know out of all the things the dog ate it. The next day the dog ran to the gate but didn’t bark. So every night I would toss the dog some candy. One night I had been at the laundry mat playing dice. It was me and them and they didn’t want me to win. Well that night they had to catch me cause I didn’t plan on losing. After winning I broke out running. Something said jump the gate. I looked as I was running to see if I could see the dog. I then in my mind JUMPED THRU DARKNESS and did some math in my head. Let’s see a group of mad thugs or a dog. I had a better chance fighting the dog. I jumped the fence and hide behind a tree. The thugs ran up to the fence. They didn’t see me. I looked back and I saw the dog looking at me. The dog then looked at them. Now at this point i,m looking up to god like if this dog bark i,m done. The dog walked slowly beside me and made me feel as if the grim reaper had smiled upon me. I became worried when he kept walking towards the gate. He barked at the thugs and they ran. The dog then walked over to me and looked up at me. I knew what time if was and I was glad I had JUMPED THRU DARKNESS earlier that day and bought some candy. As I gave him the candy I jumped back cross the fence but not before saying THAT’S MY DOG……..JTD

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WHEN PARENTS ARE HUNGRY…

People always talk about what a parent will do when their kids are hungry. These days people need to pay attention to what a child may do when they notice their parents are hungry. JOBS ARE BEING LOST AS SOON AS JOBS ARE BEING FOUND. Parents spend their lives working to keep a roof over their head. Then one day a child walks into the room and finds their mother crying because of a job lay off. Or a father smoking a cigarette on the porch while waiting for a ride to work that never comes. At that moment JUMP THRU DARKNESS and talk to the children because if you don’t every child has a fire that can be lit inside them. For a child to feel like it’s all up to them is a dangerous thing. Which leads to addictions, crimes, and gangs. Kids have no fear. All they will have in their mind is they have to help put food on the table. Add in the fact that most of their parents are in and out of jail they turn on survival mode and do what they have to do as they say. The problem is in the ways a child can help. These days crime is the only way for a child to really help their parents. We as people need to JUMP THRU DARKNESS and find ways for the young to make honest money to help the household. Because lets face it what would you do if your parents were hungry and out in the cold?….JTD

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Knock….

Emptiness and loneliness can make you drink and use things you shouldn’t. Many teens start because of loneliness or the pressure of togetherness. Adults mostly do it to forget what they regret. This world can numb you into a blank existence. Having you reaching for situations that you really don’t want to miss. An addiction will make you say yes when you need to say no. It will have you feeling like you standing tall when lying on the floor. The feelings are so pleasant that your hopes and dreams all go up in smoke. Leaving you to chase your addiction instead of your dreams because you don’t have to wait to feel happy anymore. Emptiness and loneliness is what addictions use to knock upon your door. If you can JUMP THRU DARKNESS you will tell your addictions you don’t live there anymore. A tear to an addict is motivation to feed their habit. Anger from a drunk is motivation to drink one more. So remember that the next time your addiction knocks upon your door……..JTD

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A WAY OUT OF NO WAY……

Every year I got financial aid for college. Every year they paid for room and board, meals and classes. Every year I was told I had to buy my own books. Every year I would stand outside the bookstore and watch others buy books,bags some even walked out with tv’s ( that was a college in the hood). Nevertheless every year the schools would tell me to pass without books. I spent almost twelve years in six different cities going to almost 12 different colleges with no books. Yet my grades were always above C so I could get my pell grant. I worked full time to pay off my tuition. I would walk into a class and just watch, listen, and profile the teacher. Others would be playing x and o games in their books. While I sat there with a empty desk dressed ready for work. I would take a test on friday and head to work. On monday the teacher would say great job you the only one in the class who got an A. I did all that with a hangover every week. See I JUMPED THRU DARKNES and went to the local library and found old editions of the textbooks to study from. I may have been poor but far from dumb. I have never had a rich uncle or even a well off auntie. But I have, do, and will always JUMP THRU DARKNESS to take care me. Anyway don’t say it ain’t no way. Just say which way will you use to solve your problems today……JTD

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DEAR YOUNG THUG…

Young ones don’t feel bad. Do you know how many internships I qualified for and couldn’t take because I had to pay rent. Or year after year how I slept in the dorm room during holiday breaks cause I had no home to return too. Using alcohol to make me happy on a sad day which was everyday. Hoping somebody knew how to rig the washer and dryer so I could stay clean. While walking to work and homeless people asking can they help me. In and out of shelters so much I didn’t have to sign in. That darkness you living wasn’t just made for you my friend. Suicide was always on my mind but thinking about why would make me just cry. Feeling if I fight then I can become strong enough to be happy with life. Learning there’s no winner when the fight is over only more problems. You often feel like you standing in the middle of a war field in the smoke and dark. You can play dead but one day you will have to get up. Nowhere to run back to and no direction for you to go. Yet and still JUMP THRU DARKNESS and slide your feet forward real slow. And maybe just maybe if you move far enough your war will end before you do. Then it will be your turn to teach those who love and look up to you……….

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LOOK AT IT THIS WAY…..

Barabbas asked Jesus, why do you want to save me? Jesus said because I have disciples that work all things holy. Barabbas then said well i don’t know how to read and if i did i wouldn’t want to read. So Jesus i’m ask you again why do you want to save me? Jesus replied I shall say this only one more time. I have disciples to tell everybody about the word of God and to keep the faith. But i’m saving you Barabbas so someone can handle all these snakes. Barabbas then said so what shall i do. Jesus then said find you a good godly woman. Everytime you enter her the souls of others you deem good will go to heaven. But for those you deem as evil as you. Use the power of Cain and spill your seed upon the ground so that hell can consume them all. Later after becoming free Barabbas went into a new city and did what Jesus had said. When he told his story no one believed until he said. No man, woman, or child has, is, or will do more evil than I. Then he said just think about the power of God. Who can use a man like me and condemn you all simply with my love. Today JUMP THRU DARKNESS and understand a union between man and woman maybe much more than just feathers on a dove…….JTD

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HERO OF THE UNJUST

IT’S HARD AS AN ADULT TO STOP DOING THE ONLY THING THAT MAKES YOU FEEL HAPPY. MOST PEOPLE DON’T FEEL WITHOUT DRINKING, SMOKING OR DOING PILLS. AT FIRST IT’S FOR FUN. THEN IT’S TO HIDE THE PAIN. YOU MUST JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND BE THE HERO OF THE UNJUST. WHEN YOUR KIDS THINK YOU NOT SMART SIT AND DO THEIR HOMEWORK WITH THEM. TAKE YOUR SONS AND SHOW THEM YOU CAN FIX A CAR. PUT IN WORK AND SHOW YOUR CHILDREN THAT YOU CAN DO SOMETHING. SHOW THEM YOU NOT JUST SOMEONES WHO YELLS AND PUKES. LETS FACE IT IN YOUR LIFE YOU MIGHT HAVE TEN PEOPLE THAT YOU DEAL WITH THAT YOU CAN MAKE HAPPY. MOST OF THOSE TEN PEOPLE WILL BE YOUR FAMILY. YOU MAY NEVER BE ACCEPTED BY OTHERS BUT NEITHER WAS JESUS. SO AT LEAST SHOW THEM TEN PEOPLE THE BEST SIDE OF YOU. BELIEVE IT OR NOT IT DOESN’T TAKE MUCH. JUST START CARING ABOUT YOU AND ONE DAY YOUR CHILDREN MIGHT LOOK AT YOU AS THE HERO OF THE UNJUST… JTD

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JTD 6 KRIMINAL SAGA: FOR ZORA

OUR EYES ARE STILL WATCHING FOR GOD. THE DARKNESS OF THIS EARTH NOW WILL MAKE MULES AND MEN CRY. WHEN WE JUMP THRU DARKNESS WE TELL OUR HORSES NOT TO LEAVE DUST TRACKS ON THE ROAD. SO THE DEVIL WON’T KNOW WE GONE. IF THE DARKNESS EVER CATCHES EVERY TONGUE WILL GO TO CONFESSING. SO WE RIDE AND JUMP THRU DARKNESS WITH THE LESSONS YOU PUT IN WORDS. I’M JUST HOPING I’M NOT THE ONLY ONE THAT HEARD. YOU SAID MOSES WAS A MAN OF THE MOUNTAIN. I’M TRYING TO CLIMB IT TO IN THE DARKNESS. BUT I AIN’T NO SERAPH ON THE SUWANEE. I DO WHAT I MUST TO TAKE CARE ME. I DON’T LISTEN TO LIES AND OTHER TALL TALES. CAUSE NONE OF THAT MATTERS WHEN YOU LIVING A LIFE IN LETTERS. I HEARD SOMEONE SAY GO MUDDY THE WATER. I FELT I MUST BE CLEVER. NEVERTHELESS WITH EVERY WORD YOU WROTE IT ADDS MORE BEATS TO MY HEART. YOU WAS LAID TO REST AMONGST THE PEOPLE YOU LOVED. BUT YOUR WISDOM STILL LIVES ON. AS WE JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND DO OUR PART. WITH OUR EYES STILL WATCHING GOD……..JTD

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JTD: LOOKING FOR A SMILE

IN OUR WORLD TODAY WE ARE ALL WORRIED IN A WAY. PARENTS WORRY ABOUT THE CRIMINALS THAT MAY HURT THEIR CHILDREN. JUST TO TURN AROUND AND WORRY ABOUT THEIR CHILDREN BECOMING CRIMINALS. MOST WOULD GO TO CHURCH BUT MANY FEEL LEAVING CHURCH ALONE MAYBE BEST WHEN YOU HAVE TO FIGHT FIRE WITH FIRE ON THESE STREETS. I CAN REMEMBER MOVING OUT THE SHELTER AFTER COLLEGE AND GETTING A JOB. I FOUND A PLACE TO STAY AND EVEN SOME NEW CLOTHES. WITH A NICE HAIR CUT AND SOME FAMILY DOLLAR COLOGNE I FELT SPECIAL. TWO MONTHS LATER I WAS WALKING AROUND FEELING GREAT UNTIL AN OLD MAN STEPPED TO ME AND ASKED….ARE YOU DOING BETTER NOW? I SAID YES I’M OUT THE SHELTER, I HAVE A JOB AND A PLACE TO STAY. HE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID OH YEAH THEN LOOK AT THE GROUND. HE THEN SAID SEE YOUR FEET ARE ON THE SAME ROAD YOU WAS ON BEFORE. YOU LEFT THE SHELTER BUT YOUR FEET DIDN’T. I SAID WHAT… HE SAID THEM THE SAME SHOES YOU HAD ON WHEN YOU WAS DOING BAD. IN YOUR MIND THINGS SEEM BETTER BUT YOUR FEET SAY YOU STILL DOING BAD. NOW IN LIFE THE GRASS OFTEN SEEMS GREENER WHEN YOU NOT WORRYING ABOUT ANYTHING. I LEARNED TO PRAY WITH MY HEAD UP BECAUSE AS SOON AS YOU DROP IT THE DEVIL WILL TRY TO SNEAK UP AND KNOCK YOU DOWN. ALL WHILE WE TRY TO KEEP A SMILE AND NOT A FROWN. EVEN WHILE WE SEARCH FOR A FEELING OF PEACE AND HAPPINESS. WE WILL SEARCH FOR A SMILE TO HELP CALM US. WE WILL SEARCH FOR A SMILE TO LET US KNOW WE MADE IT. THIS MONTH IF NO ONE ELSE GIVES YOU A SMILE TRY A PAIR OF NEW SHOES. THAT WAY YOUR FEET ATLEAST WON’T FROWN……..JTD

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JTD 6 KRIMINAL SAGA : RIVERS WITH NO CROSSINGS….

ADDICTIONS ARE LIKE RIVERS WITH NO CROSSINGS. YOU CAN STAND ON THE EDGE AND SEE THE BRIDGE. YOU CAN WATCH PEOPLE DRIVE AND WALK BACK AND FORTH ACROSS THAT BRIDGE. BUT EVERYTIME YOU TAKE A STEP THERE IS NO BRIDGE FOR YOU. JUST A REFECTION OF YOUR ADDICTIONS IN THE WATER BEFORE YOU. THE COLOR OF THE WATER SOMETIMES MAKE YOU FEEL BLUE TOO. YOU WOULD WONDER WHAT TO DO BUT WHEN YOU DRUNK AND HIGH STANDING RIGHT THERE FOREVER FEELS BEST FOR YOU. JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND IN YOUR MIND FIND A BRIDGE TO GET YOU BY. MAYBE ITS READING A BOOK OR TWO. MAYBE ITS FISHING IN THAT WATER THATS BLUE. FIND SOMEWAY TO GET OUT OF YOUR ADDICTIONS AND BACK INTO YOU. AND IF YOU GET CLEAN BEFORE YOU AND THE FISH START TALKING. YOU WILL FIND BRIDGES OVER RIVERS WITH NO CROSSINGS…….JTD

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JTD 6 KRIMINAL SAGA: IF SHE COULD JUST WATCH HER SHOW….

SHE WAS SITTING IN FRONT OF THE TV AT THE BUS STATION.SHE WAS DIGGING IN HER PURSE FOR A QUARTER TO TURN ON THE TV. AS I WALKED BY HEADED TO THE HOT BLACK WATER MACHINE TO GET A CUP OF BUS STATION COFFEE. YOU KNOW THE KIND THAT’S SO BAD YOU CAN’T HELP BUT STAY WOKE. BEHIND ME AS I STOOD AT THE MACHINE I COULD HEAR HER SAY…IF I COULD JUST WATCH MY SHOW I COULD GET MY LIFE BACK. SHE SAID,” I LOST MY JOB, SOCKS, AND HUSBAND THAT DAY I SMOKED THAT LACED WEED. I’M SO HOOKED ON DRUGS NOW EVERYDAY I GO TO THE HOSPITAL TO GIVE BACK MY KIDS.” I HAD NEVER MISSED MY SHOW UNTIL THAT DAY. THAT’S WHEN MY LIFE CHANGED. BUT IF I CAN WATCH MY SHOW NOW I CAN GET MY HUSBAND, JOB AND LOVE MY KIDS AGAIN. LIKE TRAVELING BACKWARDS IN TIME AND FREE MYSELF BEFORE IT BEGINS. I WENT OVER TO THE CASHIER AND ASKED FOR TEN DOLLARS IN QUARTERS. I WANTED TO HELP HER JUMP THRU DARKNESS. I SAID TO HER BROKEN WINGS LET ME HELP YOU WITH YOUR STRUGGLE AS I HANDED THE MONEY TO HER. BEFORE I WALKED AWAY I ASKED HER WHAT WAS THE NAME OF THE SHOW. AFTER SHE TOLD ME IT TOOK EVERY GOOD INSIDE ME TO WALK AWAY AND NOT TELL HER THAT THE SHOW WASN’T ON ANYMORE……..JTD

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JTD 6 KRIMINAL SAGA: THE REALIST YOU EVER HATED…..

JUMPING THRU DARKNESS HAS MANY LEVELS. ONE LEVEL IS TO BE REAL WHEN YOU HATE ON SOMEONE. SOME PEOPLE MAY NEED TO FACE A FACT THAT THE PERSON MAYBE THE REALIST PERSON THEY HAVE EVER HATED. THAT PERSON CAN KEEP A JOB. THAT PERSON TAKES CARE OF THEIR KIDS. WHEN THAT PERSON DOES DO WRONG THEY CAN EVEN GET A BOND. THAT PERSONS LANDLORD WILL GIVE THEM TIME TO PAY THE LATE RENT. WHILE YOU FORCED TO SLEEP ON THE COUCH IN A HOTEL LOBBY. EVEN WHEN UNDER A DRUG THAT PERSON KNOWS NOT TO DRIVE. THAT PERSON KEEPS THEIR CLOTHES CLEAN ALL WHILE YOU DON’T EVEN SPEND MONEY ON LAUNDRY. SOMETIMES WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT THAT PERSON EVEN YOUR FRIENDS WANT TO TELL YOU TO SHUT UP. SEEMS EVEN THE HIGHER POWER ANSWERS THAT PERSONS PRAYER AFTER ALL YOU STUCK HATING. NO MATTER HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT SOMEONE THEY STILL MAYBE BETTER THAN YOU. SO JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND STOP HATING ON OTHERS SISTERS AND BROTHERS FROM ANOTHER MOTHER. AFTER ALL JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE ALL THE NUMBERS ON YOUR SIDE DOESN’T MEAN YOU RIGHT OR BETTER THAN THE HATED. IT MAY JUST MEAN YOUR FRIENDS AND FAMILY STAND BESIDE YOU BECAUSE THEY KNOW THE PERSON YOU HATING IS BETTER THAN YOU. SO THEY FEELING SORRY FOR YOU. SO EVEN IN THEIR DARKEST HOUR THEY STILL MAY BE THE REALIST YOU EVER HATED. MAYBE EVEN ONE DAY WHEN YOU JUMP THRU DARKNESS LOVE WILL FILL YOUR HEART INSTEAD OF HATRED. BUT UNTIL THEN REMEMBER THAT THE SMILE OF THE HATED IS MORE POWERFUL THAN THE FROWN OF THE HATER…….JTD

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JTD: THRU THE DARKNESS ( A NEW ROAD)

WHEN YOU BECOME SOBER AND CLEAN YOU CAN START TO BUILD YOU A NEW ROAD. THE ROAD YOU BUILD IS UP TO YOU. YOU CAN BUILD YOUR NEW ROAD WITH LOVE, SUPPORT, AND MEANING. BUT BE CAREFUL AS YOU BUILD AND BE TRUE TO YOUR SOBRIETY. BECAUSE IF YOU DON’T INSTEAD OF A STRAIGHT ROAD TO HAPPINESS. YOU WILL BE BUILDING A U TURN ROAD BACK INTO DARKNESS…….JTD