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MIND, BODY, AND SOUL

We are promised a great heaven in the end. I can’t lie if i didn’t say the good of heaven doesn’t seem like it can ease the pain of living. If we measured the feelings we have on earth and compare them to a promise of heaven one might say it doesn’t seem worth it. You plant a garden just to watch others walk through it over and over. We might have to JUMP THRU DARKNESS and understand heaven is the heaven we create while living. Addiction can hold you down and make you hate the way you entered life and dread the way you leave life. We must fight to live before life becomes just another moment in hell. M.I.N.D…MILLIONS IN NATIONS DIE, B.O.D.Y… BLESSINGS OVER DAILY YEARNINGS & S.O.U.L…SAVING, OVERCOMING, UNITING & LEADING . Is what we need to do as people too one day feel like heaven is there. Or JUMP THRU DARKNESS and lay down a brick to help create a heaven for us all. Yet the darkness is strong but for yourself find joy in a smile and move forward slowly. It might take you awhile but hold your head up to the devil and never back down……JTD

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Pickle, Pill, and a Pillow

Further along the story I found myself feeling pain in both my legs. Feeling like Dr. who after being remade I felt I was finally okay fighting addiction and living good and clean. I made a appointment to see the doctor about the pain. I went to the store and wanted a pickle. I had my pickle when I entered the office. As I laid back on the bed for MY x ray I was finishing the last piece of pickle. I had a pill for my pain in my pocket so I popped it fast. As I was laying there feeling good from the pill and pickle. The doctor told me arthritis was in both my knees. As they rolled me back to the other room to change while I was laying there something made it hard for me to feel bad. It was the pillow. It was the softest pillow I had ever felt. Now it might have been one damn good pill and one great tasting pickle. But nevertheless I was already thinking about JUMPING THRU DARKNESS cause arthritis haven’t met me yet. Even if no one beats health we can always fight to show health we will always care………

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SOBRIETY MEANS LETTING GO OF SOME MUSIC

The hardest day ever was the day when I laid my walk-man on the dresser and walked outside without it. As I walked it seemed as if I was in a new world. I lived by those words in them songs. Some songs seem as if they were about me and some wasn’t. But in real life that music wasn’t for me. I was smart not a lame. I could make my own history not just copy words from a song just to pretend. Then I saw a car driving fast with them boys giving chase. The song they was playing was good. But it didn’t help when the telephone pole attacked the cars hood. They jumped out running leaving the car and the song behind. I bopped my head to the song as I walked by. Then the boys caught them man dudes couldn’t even rhyme. Now living a life in another persons song got them doing time. I guess they should have left them ghetto songs along. Cause not even the singers of those songs last to long. Then drugs and drinking can make you feel like you the star of it all when you hear the sound. When in reality you’re nothing but another crackhead or drunk looking and acting like a clown. So jump thru darkness and start a new before the drugs, drinking and song turn into the blues. So when you do decide to get clean remember that means all the drug, gangster, and hood trap music too…….JTD

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YOU, ME, AND WE

You learned the streets can be hell. Me well I learned drugs and alcohol can create hell. We learned it’s easier when you get into trouble as a kid but quickly found out that’s different when you become a man. You learned to watch when someone else is rolling the blunt. Me I learned from watching you not to smoke blunts. We learned that sometimes who is doing the smoking doesn’t matter when you get pulled over. You learned a new number to post bail. Me I learned you told the cop it was both of our weed. We learned nobody wants to fall alone in the game. You learned your strikes was at three. Me I didn’t look back when I became free. Then like a hungry man saving a cows life. I JUMPED THRU DARKNESS and bailed you out. You, me, and we both knew why. Cause if we acted like friends neither one of us would have gotten out. So YOU, ME, AND WE make the two sides to every street….JTD

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THE DARKEST HOURS

Times seem unreal. We hoped for change and got monopoly instead. Just thinking about the pending darkness to come makes your soul want to run. Yet in the beginning was the word and in our times the word is JUMPING THRU DARKNESS. The words that shall help you hold it together. Even the writer of these words is holding on to something. For life today seems like a sinking ship yet we don’t run we just grab a better grip. These are days of sober minds cause the intoxicated will surely drown. Even if in the days to come you find yourself falling down. Wait for a moment and look around so you can see all the others on that same ground. Then as you rise remember you are blessed and this world shall not keep you down. Stay sober and clean and JUMP THRU DARKNESS in this worlds darkest hours…….JTD

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Reshaping To Save Or Youth

It once was summer youth programs where kids over 12 could get a summer job. It once was rec centers that offered programs for low income kids. Nowadays you look to the local ymca or park districts just to find that the prices cost more than your rent. I would like to see social services team with the park districts to offer low income families one free program a year. Programs like cooking, building maintenance, auto repair, or sports. To help keep kids age 12 and up off the streets during the summer or even winter and teaching them skills that will help them even without a college degree. We train or kids to be college grads but do nothing for those who might just be blue collar workers. We should JUMP THRU DARKNESS and start reshaping our minds for our youth. Make the prices for programs reachable for low income families and many will reach out. Nevertheless this is just a thought and not an order yet…….JTD

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WOULD YOU ENTER HEAVEN ALONE…

HOW DO YOU REALLY FIX YOUR EMOTIONS. HOW DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW YOU SHOULD REALLY FEEL. YOU CAN’T REALLY COPY OTHERS CAUSE THEIR EMOTIONS MIGHT BE WORSE THAN YOURS. FROM CRYING ALONE IN A DARK ROOM. TO ACTING BRAVE WHILE WALKING IN THE HOOD. EMOTIONS SEEM TO GOVERN OR WAYS EACH AND EVERYDAY. I ONCE SAID IF WE DIDN’T HAVE EMOTIONS WE WOULD BE OKAY. SO HERE’S THE QUESTION IF GOD SAID YOU COULD ENTER HEAVEN BUT NO ONE YOU LOVED OR HAVE EVER KNOWN WOULD BE ABLE TO GO IN. WOULD YOU STILL ENTER? WOULD YOUR EMOTIONS AND LOVE FOR OTHERS STOP YOU FROM ENTERING. THINK ABOUT IT MANY TIMES ALREADY YOU PUT YOUR OWN LIFE ON HOLD BECAUSE OF EMOTIONS FOR OR FROM OTHERS. WILL YOU FIND YOURSELF IN THE END DOING THE SAME THING. OR WILL YOU JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND WALK ON IN. IT’S OKAY TO LOVE YOURSELF EVEN WHEN YOU CAN’T DO THE SAME FOR OTHERS. AFTER ALL I CAN FEEL MY HEART BEAT. BUT I CAN’T REALLY SAY OTHERS EVEN HAVE A HEART. SO JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND IF YOU LIVE BY EMOTIONS MAKE SURE YOUR CHOICES ARE SMART………JTD

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THE AROUSAL OF ADDICTIONS

Let’s prepare ourselves for the journey and arousal of the new year. You went down alcoholic road and faced a mental battle in the end. As you began to JUMP THRU DARKNESS in the last years you felt you could win. Yet the addiction demons are stronger and some even have friends. You can’t really want something to smoke without a drink in hand. Remember that when you JUMPED THRU DARKNESS you became a new person my friend. Yet always remember the tiny warning at the bottom of your sobriety. It says even after you change for the better your addictions just get stronger and clever. So no matter what your face may look like after you earn your sobriety. JUMP THRU DARKNESS and keep riding. The darkness of addictions has many forms. So in this new year PRAY, STAY FOCUSED, AND MOST OF ALL LEAVE THE DRINKS AND DRUGS ALONE AND KEEP JUMPING THRU DARKNESS………JTD

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

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LET YOUR HEART LOVE

What if the key to GOD’S love was within you. Meaning learning to love unconditionally will make GOD love you unconditionally. Loving someone no matter their sickness. Loving somebody no matter their sin. Loving somebody no matter their addictions. Loving somebody no matter their afflictions. If that’s the case no wonder heaven will seem empty with only a few hundred thousand. And the golden city will be for those who just barely in the nick of time learn how to truly love before they die. Addictions can make it hard to hold and love someone. Yet you must JUMP THRU DARKNESS and truly love with your heart and not your feelings and mind. The heart can’t see only you can. The heart can’t touch or feel only you can. The heart knows only to love or hurt and love is the way to win. Try closing your eyes with your better half and see if you can go one hour without looking at them. Only using your heart and listening to their words of love. Will fear make you open your eyes? Will the lack of trust have you peeping from one eye? Or will you feel your heart smile knowing you JUMPED THRU DARKNESS and tried loving for awhile…….JTD

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Kaptain Their Borg….Addicts

Kaptain the old folks and kids on south deck have been assimilated using molly and weed. The crews on the west deck have been assimilated with powder and gin. The workers on the east and north decks have all been assimilated using liquor and crack. And Kaptain it seems a total loss on the midwest decks….Number three plant a course to the JUMPING THRU DARKNESS system. Sir what will we do there. We shall take the fight to the Borg. TO BE CONTINUED…..JTD

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WEAK…WEEK

You went looking for Monday but found Tuesday.

When Wednesday came you thought it was an

illusion. Thursday tried to wake you up. But Friday

took you back under. Saturday was filled with

head and stomach aches but you didn’t worry.

Cause you knew you would sleep all Sunday so you

could look for Monday…… ADDICTIONS ( JTD)

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A Tree In The Storm

For those of the camp fire. For those who are missing anyone they loved due to any and all tragedies this year. To that woman holding the only child she has left that’s trying to gain the strength to even cook dinner this year. To the father that holds his own hands not to become one of the devils riding around in the streets searching for revenge. To our country that must act like a TREE IN THE STORM and not break but just bend. Our faith and hopes will be bent. Our dreams and our family foundations will be bent. Yet in all things we must JUMP THRU DARKNESS and let our Trees bend but not break in this American Storm. Our tears run down our face like the sap rolling down that tree. We loose friends and family like the leaves falling from that tree. Yet we still must not break. Do what you must and understand a smile might be far away. But whatever you do remember you are branches on america’s tree and you shall not break. Happy Holidays From JTD………

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Are You A Bad Person Or Is It Your Addiction

When JUMPING THRU DARKNESS I want you to understand and know the difference. Are you really a bad person? Are you really a criminal? Or is it really your addictions that control your actions. You won’t fight unless you drunk. You won’t shoot without your blunt. You won’t stand up for yourself unless the crowd makes you feel blessed. While sober and alone you feel your life is a mess. You need a drink or blunt to help you sleep. Just to get up and need a drink and or blunt to keep you wake. Thats because sober you can feel the pain. Sober you can feel the fear. Sober you can understand your hope is far not near. Are you a bad person or it just addiction in your ear. Addictions make you feel like you living a kriminal saga. Yet you the meanest thug around if somebody say something wrong about the bible. So JUMP THRU DARKNESS and see past your own smoke. And start by giving yourself a break cause you might not be the devil you thought….

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ST.IVES SPECIAL BREW….

Life will tell you when it’s time to change. Those of yesterday that danced to luke and hammer or even loved pac and biggie all can remember special brew St. ives. But i’m glad some of them were gone so they didn’t have to watch the end of the things we all loved. Our world in the clubs had came to an end. At first it was girl and guy then it was man dancing with man. It even hurt when the songs we loved became old in the club. The party starter until the party started without me. Soon walking into a club was like walking into unknown waters. But that day when I told the bartender I wanted a special bottle I knew it was over. Our world was gone and I felt the pain too. Because the bartender said they no longer sale special brew. I didn’t know then but I know now that that’s the moment my sobriety battle started. All my contacts in my black book were gone. All my dance partners were gone. All the music I loved to hear was gone. That life was gone. As I walked out the door of the club for the last time. It was like waking up from a dream as I looked to the sky. As I JUMPED THRU DARKNESS and walked away I saw a empty special brew on the ground pointing forward way………JTD

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Find A Way…

Find a way black friend, black friend. Punching right while kicking left is the way of man. No one feels sorry for the broken or needful. Keeping an eye on racist creatures while ducking bullets from your own people. Trying to find the best color to love while dealing with hate from your own. Water is dry when it’s compared to a black man’s tears. Only a shadow in the dark can mention his fears. Running to a missing father while leaving behind his own children. Becoming a man without supervision. As a child says daddy come back home in their whispers. A drug and a drink to help him think. Never feeling that his addictions are making him sink. Black man,black man you can solve any problem. But when it comes to your addictions you have no answer. Black man, black man don’t just read this. Black man, black man JUMP THRU DARKNESS and understand this. If you not a black man and yet you still reading this. When I say black man I mean all men that’s fighting for something. That’s making a way out of nothing. So in the end we’ll feel like our lives meant something. Not to impress others but to feel like we didn’t live our lives in vain. While fighting our addictions with pride instead of living in shame. Black man, black man find a way…..JTD

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Dealing With Family And Friends Who Are Addicts..

YOU MUST ASK YOURSELF DO YOU REALLY HAVE A HEART? MANY PEOPLE TURN THEIR BACKS ON ADDICTS. BUT ADDICTION IS A SICKNESS LIKE ANY OTHER. WOULD YOU TURN YOUR BACK ON SOMEONE WITH CANCER? WOULD YOU TURN YOUR BACK ON SOMEONE WITH LUPUS. THESE PEOPLE HAVE SICKNESS THAT LAST FOREVER MOST OF THE TIMES. YET YOU WILL STAND BESIDE THEM NO MATTER WHAT. TRUTH BE TOLD CANCER AND LUPUS AS WELL AS MANY OTHER’S CAN HAVE YOU LOOKING LIKE A CRACKHEAD WITHOUT A PIPE. I KNOW YOU HATE WHEN YOUR PARENTS OR KIDS DRINK AND SMOKE. YOU EVEN STAND TO THEIR BEDROOM DOOR WATCHING THEM AS THEY ARE PASSED OUT ON THE FLOOR. IT’S HARD NOT TO FEEL SOME TYPE OF WAY. BUT JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND LET YOUR FOUNDATION BUILT BY LOVE LEAD THE WAY. CAUSE EVEN IN THEIR ADDICTIONS THEY DESERVE LOVE AND A SMILING FACE……JTD

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WASN'T I THE MAN THEN…

I WAS THE MAN WHEN I WAS DRINKING AND DRUGGING EVERY NIGHT. WASN’T I THE MAN WHEN I HELPED YOU FIGHT. I KNOW I WAS THE MAN WHEN SHE LET ME STAY OVER EVERY NIGHT. BUT WAS I THE MAN WHEN THE JUDGE SAID 10, 20, TWO LIFE. DID THE TEARS FROM MY EYES MAKE ME LESS THAN A MAN FOR THE CRIMES. BUT IN MY MIND AS I STOOD THERE I COULD STILL SMILE CAUSE I KNEW SOMEBODY WAS STILL CALLING ME THE MAN SOMEWHERE. DIDN’T I JUMP THRU DARKNESS AND STEAL A METER WHEN YOUR LIGHTS GOT TURNED OFF. DIDN’T I JUMP THRU DARKNESS WHEN I CALLED THE MANAGER AT THAT THERE RESTAURANT AND SAID MY ORDER WAS MESSED UP. EVEN WHEN I DIDN’T BUY FOOD BECAUSE I NEEDED TO FEED YOU. I KNOW I WAS THE MAN WHEN I SHOWED UP TO THE HOSPITAL WHEN YOU AND YOUR SISTER WAS BOTH HAVING MY KIDS. I MEAN EVEN AS THEY TAKE ME TO DO MY TIME. I WAS THE MAN WASN’T I ???……JTD