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I would always say that I was alone. Whenever bad things happened I would swear no one cared about me. The drink was my family and friend. It really made me look for the wrong and sadness in everyone and everything. Making me need it more than a better life. When I became sober I learned that the endless pit of sadness and wrong was all created by me wanting to be a drunk. Fights with family and friends can all be added to the urge to have a reason to drink. Yes at first it started out fun with family and friends. Then it was every drink at every grouping that ended in arguments, so I would have a reason to lock myself alone in a room with my drink. Feelings like a person looking for a lost love drunken and alone. But when I tasted sobriety it was like a hidden gift to me. I no longer felt I needed love because for some reason I felt loved. I understand that for you things might feel as if you have lost a love. But no matter what it may cost, hold on to your sobriety cause it can be that love that you lost……..

Let’s chat a little. So you love to drink and that’s okay. But what about all your memories. You know the memories from when you made your kids. Oh you just remember the hangover. What about when your child first started walking. Oh you didn’t see their first steps because the cup was up to your face. Okay so you woke up one morning you know with the heat from your nose making you feel like a dragon. With a headache that made you feel like you spent the night nailing up a window with your head. Then you walk in the living room and everyone is looking at you like you in the wrong house. Or that friend you be around all day sober but you seem to love to start fights with when you drunk. No wonder that friend barely answers your call. You be on top of the world with a drink. But deep inside the feeling of somethings wrong is always there. Something maybe but you will never blame the alcohol. So all you can do is JUMP THRU DARKNESS until you realize it maybe the the alcohol and just hang on……..JTD

You ever wonder why drinks of any kind seem to be perfect. Meat gets recalled. Even water seems to turn bad in bottles. But wine just gets better with age. And no one knows when beer in bad. One would say beer is bad when it’s gone. But what if the wine or beer you drink should have been on a recall list. Who has the job of tasting every drink. How is alcohol of any kind proven safe to drink. Can you imagine a drunk taster telling the world it’s safe to drink. Try JUMPING THRU DARKNESS and wondering the next time you have a drink in your hand. Is that drink safe? Does beer spoil? Yes it makes you drunk and feel good but what else can it be doing to you? We have grade a beef but when it comes to alcohol all you have is how it tastes. Beware the unregulated armor of alcohol. Because it might look great inside the bottle but you will never see where it might have come from. Now every company says they clean. But you can wash a folk and it still may have food on it. I just want you to think a little along ALCOHOLIC ROAD……..JTD

We are promised a great heaven in the end. I can’t lie if i didn’t say the good of heaven doesn’t seem like it can ease the pain of living. If we measured the feelings we have on earth and compare them to a promise of heaven one might say it doesn’t seem worth it. You plant a garden just to watch others walk through it over and over. We might have to JUMP THRU DARKNESS and understand heaven is the heaven we create while living. Addiction can hold you down and make you hate the way you entered life and dread the way you leave life. We must fight to live before life becomes just another moment in hell. M.I.N.D…MILLIONS IN NATIONS DIE, B.O.D.Y… BLESSINGS OVER DAILY YEARNINGS & S.O.U.L…SAVING, OVERCOMING, UNITING & LEADING . Is what we need to do as people too one day feel like heaven is there. Or JUMP THRU DARKNESS and lay down a brick to help create a heaven for us all. Yet the darkness is strong but for yourself find joy in a smile and move forward slowly. It might take you awhile but hold your head up to the devil and never back down……JTD

Further along the story I found myself feeling pain in both my legs. Feeling like Dr. who after being remade I felt I was finally okay fighting addiction and living good and clean. I made a appointment to see the doctor about the pain. I went to the store and wanted a pickle. I had my pickle when I entered the office. As I laid back on the bed for MY x ray I was finishing the last piece of pickle. I had a pill for my pain in my pocket so I popped it fast. As I was laying there feeling good from the pill and pickle. The doctor told me arthritis was in both my knees. As they rolled me back to the other room to change while I was laying there something made it hard for me to feel bad. It was the pillow. It was the softest pillow I had ever felt. Now it might have been one damn good pill and one great tasting pickle. But nevertheless I was already thinking about JUMPING THRU DARKNESS cause arthritis haven’t met me yet. Even if no one beats health we can always fight to show health we will always care………

Times seem unreal. We hoped for change and got monopoly instead. Just thinking about the pending darkness to come makes your soul want to run. Yet in the beginning was the word and in our times the word is JUMPING THRU DARKNESS. The words that shall help you hold it together. Even the writer of these words is holding on to something. For life today seems like a sinking ship yet we don’t run we just grab a better grip. These are days of sober minds cause the intoxicated will surely drown. Even if in the days to come you find yourself falling down. Wait for a moment and look around so you can see all the others on that same ground. Then as you rise remember you are blessed and this world shall not keep you down. Stay sober and clean and JUMP THRU DARKNESS in this worlds darkest hours…….JTD